Breast Cancer Support Group

Breast cancer is a cancer that usually originates in the ducts or lobules of the breast. Symptoms of breast cancer can include a lump in the breast, a change in size or shape of the breast or discharge from a nipple. If you or a loved one has been diagnosed with breast cancer, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, and meet others going through...

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Koyu 11/28/2018

I know this sounds silly but I just had my every two year CT and bone scan and my annual mammogram today and for some reason I feel depressed. And because of my restless leg syndrome, I could stop it from moving during the bone scan. I am sure it is fine but...

I am approaching my ninth year in remission and I am scared this year because I am so exhausted and overwhelmed I can't seem to rest.

Thank you for letting me share this. I don't know what to do with these feelings. When it comes to this disease, I am a basket case.

It is almost December.

Wishing you all peace.

Koyu

stillstanding 12/02/2018

I'm sorry to hear that the fear from re occurrence is just as strong 9 yrs later. I wish there was an easy way to not experiencing that fear.

Try to think of NOW. Not the past or the future. Am I having any problems right NOW? Am I thinking/obsessing about the outcome of a scan/interview/etc...why? Nothing has happened yet. Am I thinking about the pain I had during treatment/separation/etc....why? Its over already.

It hurts my ego (?) when I realize I need to change my train of thought but if I don't that depression will effect too many other aspects of my life.

I wish you peace as well.....

Koyu 12/02/2018

Thanks for your support. My last CT and bone scan was two years ago and I felt I dodged a bullet because I was getting laxed with my diet and what not.

this year I am getting into a lot of old habits of taking care of others instead of myself and I am just exhausted. I am just wiped out.

It helps to share it here. Hugs, Koyu

hkitty71 12/05/2018

Koyu, I get nervous and scared every mammogram and it has been 10 years. I just think it is our new normal so to speak. You are tired and stressed and that does not help at all because that makes you feel down and it is so much easier to worry when you are tired and down.

Koyu 12/06/2018

Thank you hkitty71.

The good news is no cancer and no change. I am still in pain because they cut my lymphnodes and I still have to wait on the results of my blood test.

Someone in another group gave me some wise advice to just do the best that I can.

Still 2019 I need to be a litle more selfish and take care of myself.

thank you both for responding to my share.

Hugs, Koyu

Novembergirl1950 11/25/2019

Koyu ~ I am 7 years cancer free. The surgical site where the Sentinel Lymph nodes were removed, have remained very sensitive to this day.

A month before my yearly mammogram I start the dreaded thoughts. The day of my mammogram, I become very anxious and fearful. As I sit in that small curtained booth waiting for the results, I cry.

Then off to see my Oncologist which I also dread. At the conclusion of the exam, I start crying again. When my Oncologist informed me that she will only follow me until year 10, I cried, that means only 3 years left of yearly exams from her.

I am not one to display any emotion in public, but I find myself easily overwhelmed with anything that has to do with cancer testing.

What blood test are you having?

I find the only people that understand my reactions are those that have had cancer. I no longer confide in anyone that hasn't.

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