I am not sure where to start so I will just put down what comes to my mind, I hope that is ok.
I am now 62 years old, with some progressive health problems and my wife has recently decided she is better off without me. I was reading a post of Just2cats and like him it really blindsided me as well. I, too, thought I was being supportive of everything she wanted to do and tried to be as little of a burden to her as I could. And then 2 days after my last birthday, I get a "dear John" text saying she is leaving and going to live with her daughter in another city. She would only communicate through emails and text, and was not interested in working things out. When I asked to try and find out what happened, she only would say she has been thinking about for several months. That really hurt as I had asked her if something was wrong a couple of months before she left and specifically asked if she was still ok with my health issue as I knew I was slowly getting worse. She looked right at me and said she would never leave me like that, she was not that type of person. There were, of course, other flags when I started to look back, but for the most part she told me and our friends that everything was great and she was happy. I went into this marriage knowing that communication was very important and for my part I was always up front with everything and was always ready to talk things out, which I told her many times. Again, like Just2cats, many of our friends reached out to me in support and surprisingly both her mom and oldest son (this was a 2nd marriage for both of us) did the same which was very nice on their part and I appreciated.
I guess what I am trying to put down is even with all the support of friends and family, I still am having a very hard time dealing with what has happened. Even with all the support, there is still the overwhelming feelings of loneliness, loss, and for me who would want a sixty + year old with my health issues, which makes my future look very bleak, “will I be alone for the rest of my life”? Also, the feeling of being a failure! Everyone tells me I am a great guy, easy to get along with, its not your fault. But this is the 2nd time, is it something I am doing, or am I just to stupid to see the problems??
Well thanks for reading this, I am sorry if I sounds like I am whining, just needed to put some of my feelings down. It does help a little, but I am still very scared of what the future holds
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