I am 24 almost 25. I have two children with this guy and we have been on again off for like 6 years... Every time we break up he sweet talks me into getting back with him.. we have been engaged 2 times.. aka my two children bur I was never enough for him. He likes his "variety". Hence the on again off again plays. But now I miss him.. even though he's a no good jobless mfer who had not even met our 8 mo old daughter like my heart cries for this toxic relatioship... why?! Like how does he get to cheat 4 mos after we found we are pregnant both times mind you and still get to have a place in my heart.... like I'm so ashamed of how petty I feel to have feelings for such a low life.. but I guess it's bcuz I'm alone with our children and our dreams we used to share...like how an I to get get over 6 years of this and him cutting all ties by myself. I'm not string enough for this shit... besides me working full time being a mom I'm starting school soon... idk what I'm going to do! Help before I do something stupd!