It sounds like you're mad at God. You followed the rules but it seems like God didn't answer your prayers. This is not an uncommon reaction to a traumatic event. Does your church or one in your area offer Divorce Care? In addition to helping you deal with the divorce itself, it's a faith based program designed to strengthen your relationship with God. It might help make church more palatable to you again.

God, has a fickle sense of humor
God, does have a plan and a call for us
God, gives "us" free will
And that is where people like your husband frick up the plan
people can choose to crap all over themselves and other people

in this world there is no justice, no fair, you can be principled, the good samaritan, and still have rotten stuff happen,

God is beyond our human understanding, think kid in a cancer ward

mad at God, yeah, I've been livid

do you believe? me? - yes
do i understand it/this world/ how God works? no

pray, pray for grace to fall on your children and you, pray to be able to hear God's call, pray that the right things work out for your family

be mad at God for a bit, then forgive God for what you don't understand about God, (i think God understands that about us)

I understand....I have been mad at God before....not for what I am going through now, but for something different. I ran from Him until there was no running. God loves you. When I first separated, I would pray before opening my bible. I still remember God giving the the verse when Jesus is talking to Zacchaeus. He tells Zacchaeus that today He will restore his house. I believed that God was going to get my husbands attention and we would work things out. That hasn't happened....atleast not in the way I thought. I think God will restore my home, He just has a different plan than me. I always say to tell God you are mad. He know anyhow. I would also advise you to talk to your pastor or someone you trust to help pray with and for you and to guide you. A prayer will be said for you as soon as I end this post. God Bless.

Did you meet your husband at church?

We associate God with having the ability to perform miracles but in a a lot of the lessons taught in the bible...people went through extrodinary pain before they received relief of any kind. Do you think perhaps you might be looking for the wrong miracle? Maybe in time his leaving you can be seen as a blessing :-). Hugs and healing to you.

*a lot of people raised in church associate God

You guys are right... I am mad at God. My whole life has been about serving others (it is even my full time job) and being a good role model. People look up to me and I feel like I am letting them down. Truthfully ... The person I am today is rough around the edges. I have alway been able to see God in the everyday details of life but now I feel like my life is spinning out of control and He is nowhere to be found.... My husband makes constant accusations against my character and it really hurts... My friends say he is crazy but it still hurts. I have never had anyone constantly attacking me.... I am so lonely.... While I have the support of great people all around me I still feel alone.... Prayers needed...

I went through (maybe I still am going through) similar feelings. I was always the "good" one, following the rules, always honoring my marriage, always forgiving, and always giving my husband another chance. He would blame shift everything onto me. I was a regular at church with my kids every Sunday while my husband slept off his hangover. During the divorce, I felt like God was rewarding him and punishing me. I rarely attend church now, but for me, it's more about having to see all those happy intact families. What's the point in going when it causes me pain? I am sorry for the pain you are feeling. Please be gentle with yourself and don't force yourself to go to church if you're not ready.

I think many spiritual people go through this after a breakup/divorce. I sure did. I can't tell you why, but I can tell you I eventually did come back around. I think we need to blame as many people for our pain as we can, and as a Christian, we believe God is all powerful and could stop the situation, or pain, etc, forgetting that he gives us all free will. Be patient and gentle hugs. Try not to let your heart grow bitter against God. He truly does only want the best for us.

One thing to add. Satan is alive and well and running around wreaking havoc all over this world. Try and recognize that Satan's plan is for distruction, to create disparity and to turn you away from God forever. Don't let him do that. Be angry, but be forgiving. It's hard to let any kind of anger go, but try to.

I believe that God has a plan, you know the saying: If God brings you to it, he'll bring you through it. I truly believe it and I have had many little miracles through this past year of pain and turmoil. I can't and won't deny God's hand in my own personal journal. It is so freeing and gives me such peace to pray and turn it all over to God.

As far as church attendance, I was very blessed to be amongst wonderful people who wrapped their arms around me and got me through the tough times. I spent many Sundays in the church ladies room, lol. I know my church family loves me and I love them and I'd be the first one there if I saw someone in need like I was. It is hard to go to church at first, very hard but I knew if I didn't continue, it would be easy to NOT go and I didn't want that either. I did miss a few weeks here and there in the beginning but I kept going back and am blessed for it. Be glad you have kids to take, mine don't go and I had to go by myself.....that is hard too. Keep your head held high and put on that fake smile and embrace the love of your church family. They really do care about you and your sweet family!!!!! Lean on them during this difficult time, that is why we have church families.

For a long time I prayed for divine intervention to bring my husband back (I knew that was the only way he would come back) but he didn't, so I needed to buck up and plan my new life w/out my husband, it is hard, even now a year later. During the hard, sad times I have to remind myself that God is in charge and that keeps me focused and moving forward.

Like Missy said, Divorce Care was a great support to me, I didn't do the classes but I did sign up for the daily e-mails, they are wonderful, mine have ended and I miss those daily spiritual thoughts.

God is good and he is there for each and every one of us, we just need to ask, he loves us, he knows us and he cries when we're in pain. Hugs and prayers to you and your little family.

A few weeks ago I heard something along the lines of, We are part of His masterpiece, like a painting, and only a small corner of it is revealed to us. We don't know what the whole picture is about. I was angry at God at the time, and hearing that helped me. I still get angry at Him sometimes. Like a child. Because I don't understand. None of us can understand. I just have to accept that I don't know the big picture, I am being refined in some way, and then praise Him in the storm, because I know it is for my good. Prayers for you going up.