Strum, you are on the rollercoaster ride of emotions. It will take some time. Things are still pretty fresh for just 2 months. Hugs!

2 months is so fresh, something to remind you of good times pops up, a thought or experience you would have shared, jeeze, just about anything can bring on them blues. Gotta fight thru...hugs to you.

geeze mine was 16 months ago and I still have days that I experience triggers....just less frequently....give yourself time! (((HUGS)))

Two steps forward, one step back. It's normal.

It's still early, it will get better. My counselor told me figure one month for every year. If you were in a long term realtionship you need to give yourself lots of time. But it will get better the painful days will start to be further between and easier to work through. ((((HUGS))))

I am SO sorry to tell you, but it takes a while.

And people here constantly refer to the rollercoaster effect .....one day you are feeling strong, can handle things, see through the bull.... then somehow you are triggered and feel lonely, unloved, guilty and fault-ridden, even though you may have little fault at all. Perhaps yo had no say at all. But your marriage is gone, and you feel awful.

You have lost much and are on a journey of self re-discovery and necessary bone and soul deep healing. I don't think recovery works in a linear fashion for many. Rather, we step forward, as in finding new interests, or rediscovering former ones, engaging in life again. Then backward: news of x's new affairs/doing that exclude you, holidays approaching and your former routines and holiday celebrations completely diverted by the destruction that is divorce.

I find, as I f=go up and down, that the days are getting more manageable, and the realization that he may never have been the man I gave him full credit for being all those years. A good person would NOT ever do what he has done. Love does not express itself that way.

What many of us here seem to experience as our unions dissolve is complete uncontrolled self-indulgence of the most toxic kind coupled with lack of impulse control on the part of our partners, and exposure to the results of those forces can be traumatic.

It will take time and patience and will, but you will feel better and better. Time is your friend, so embrace it....
I send fond hopes that the time will pass quicker than you realize, and your recovery will be robust and arriving SOON.

Boyd, you expressed it very well.

You're on the rollercoaster. Hang on, the bad times will pass.

Hugs!

Boyd52, you are a born writer and a wise "counselor." Strum, I'm right there with you timewise (2 months) and Boyd's words seem to be sage advice. I'll be sending healing thoughts your way.