I am currently passing through a very difficult and challenging period.  I lost my relationship, lost job, lost my property (house because of the mortgage), lost my dad (the one who counted most for me in this world). In the process, my friends and other family members disapeared.  Those who were closer to me when I was living a good life have evaporated.  I have three kids in my broken relationship.  I love them to death. But, having no any financial source currently, I cry non stop every time I think of the situation that I am unable to meet their (my kids) material needs.  I used to buy them almost any able parent can do, used to take them in different place of the world. I had the dream to give them the best education possible.  I had started it but everything boken early.  Am now nothing than a symbol for them. I can't help them.  In few months, I risk to be on the street.  Despite the best education I had in the best engineering school, up to a PhD and with more than 17 years of work experience in reputed organizations, I couldn't get any job back to pay something for my kids.  Now, If I stay with them and nothing will change in the following few months, I don't want my kids see me sleeping in the street. I prefer to die or to go away elsewhere (I do not know where but to somewhere they wont see me when I sleep on the street).  I love them so much and I really don't know what to do to separate from them.