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brokenjohn 01/10/2017

I told her that where she is going I can not follow. I told her that I will always be there for her. I told her that if the day ever comes that she desires me once more then both myself and my heart will be waiting. I told her that I will work because it will keep both my pain and my sadness at bay.

Even though it torments me inside to be near her and not feel her warmth, I shall continue to serve, for that is my love for her.

I will smile and hide my dying heart to spare my soul mate the burden of my blood stained and silent death.

I will take the long walk and suffer the cold of my hearts hurt while she loves and lives.

I will be her rock that weathers the storms of suffering so that my strength is hers.

In time I will heal, In time I will regrow but it will be a growth grown out of necessity instead of by the light of love.

I will continue to be her wolf, prowling in her cold and lonely shadow. Ever watchful and alert for anything that might harm her.

I will hide my tears from her as I hide them from the world because even though my life has slowed to a crawl, the lives of those around me must go on, day by joyous day.

I wish I could sleep. I wish I could eat. But were I to truly wish, I'd not wish for either but for the other half of my aching soul.

I am so tired...

JewelB 01/10/2017

That is beautiful........I pray your heart is able to heal from being broken.

thiscantbeit 01/10/2017

This spoke volumes... Its crazy that we have to go through this! All I can do is keep praying. :-(

justmakeitstop 01/10/2017

But what if the other half of your aching soul is actually someone else? And you're wasting your time on someone who doesn't deserve it?

brokenjohn 01/10/2017

Were I meant to be with another then my heart would not hurt as much as it does now. It would be painful aye, but there would be a finality to it, a certain sense of closure. I would like to believe the hurt is in direct proportion to how real my love was with this woman. If I am to believe that, then it is a pain I've not felt in 42 years of life.

As for your question... one can never waste time on the happiness and joy's of love, soulmate or not. As much as it pains me right now, if I were to be offered the gift of another's heart then I'd jump at the opportunity because to live without love would be far more painful.

justmakeitstop 01/10/2017

I disagree. I just "lost" my husband of 10 years to another woman. The pain was unbearable at first. Then I started looking inward at the problems in our relationship and saw that our relationship could have used a lot of work. While I'm not looking for anyone new, if I happened to meet someone I would know the effort that I would need to put into the relationship.

How long has it been since your split?

brokenjohn 01/10/2017

I've been with her for almost 8 years, and about 6 months ago our passions had started to cool. We talked back in early Dec about it and she told me that she was starting to take me for granted because she knew that I was always going to be there for her no matter what.

If she desired me, I was was hers, if she needed me for tasks around the yard, I was hers, if she needed emotional support, I was hers. Without question and without complaint did I try to show her just what my love had to offer. I made sure to complement her as often as I could, serve up romance as a matter of utmost importance, and make her feel beautiful and desired every time we made love.

It's been about a week now since I've started going through the pains of my loss. And don't misunderstand, when I say that I'd jump at the opportunity for love, I merely mean in the future at some point.

Right now I'm still confused, hurt, afraid, and soul sick to have any capacity for love. But I will never lose hope for love is far to great a thing to ever truly give up on.

As for her, she is starting a new and exciting relationship with another and for her am I happy. To be bitter would only cheapen what we shared and I'd not want that. After all, I am thankful for the happiness that we did have together.

Sometimes people can grow apart without there being anything wrong, at least I'd like to think that anyways.

hope123 01/11/2017

Brokenjohn, you cannot take her back or even wait for her. She took you kind heart for granted. Something my ex did as well and i still miss her as well. Its the attachment. You have been with this person for so long and it hurts so much. You are not alone in this difficult journey and i know things seems confusing right now and how painful this is but you have to push yourself and change your thoughts. Its a mental thing and once you change ur mindset, u will continue to get better. You will be able to sleep properly, eat, and enjoy life again and eventually love again. I am still feeling this pain but i am slowly getting better. First step to do is to delete everything of her; pictures and anything that reminds you of her. If you dont want to throw them out or delete them, you have to store it away, give it to your friend and not open it until those things become nothing but memories and i doesnt hurt anymore. You are not alone. I feel this pain every morning, sometimes it carries on during the day. Some days is just really bad, some days are better. Just know there is hope. Once you get used to being happy alone, you will be able to share your happiness with someone else and love again.

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