I started going to bed early to avoid thinking about the weekend without my wife. The house is always empty and nothing to do.. Also, I started working out during the evening. Just a few situps near the bed or couch and maybe some stretches. It helps organize my thoughts and feel better a bit. Maybe it'll help you too?

I'm there with you. I'm not sure what your outcome will be, mine wasn't good. She asked me for time and then just told me a few weeks later that she actually just wanted a divorce from the start but was too sad to tell me. It's completely devastated me because I didn't expect it. I was working really hard on fixing the issues that drove her away, but she just said it was too late for her, she left and it's obvious that she won't come back. I truly hope from my heart that this does not happen to the two of you, but you need to be strong either way. Focus on improving yourself or at least entertaining yourself. You need YOU a lot more than you need her! I know it's hard to see it but it is important that, whatever the outcome of this situation, you bring that into your life as a fundamental principle.
All this to say that I understand how you feel and that, either way, it does get better. I know everyone always tells you this and it feels like it won't, but they're right, it does get better. At your present uncertain situation it's nigh on impossible to make heads or tails of anything, but you can make it. If you feel too self-distructive, seek out your friends, they won't hesitate to remind you what a wonderful person you are.
I've been reading posts on this forum for a while, and it seems obvious to me that every single person who ends up in a place like this is a decent, beautiful, however temporarily broken, human being. We will fix ourselves, and we will remember how nice we are. It may take us some time but we will!

I made a routine where I wake up very early and exhaust myself during the day so when it comes time for bed my body just shuts down. I normally try to do productive things (self improvement) and stay out doors where there are people or a nice place to just take a walk. When I wake up I go straight to the gym. It gives me endorphin's that last me for hours and it also help me rise my self esteem. I used the ex as motivation to push myself and well as my own inner strength to show myself that shes was not going to influence my will to live life to its fullest. Try and take advantage of your independence and do something nice for yourself.

Thank you everyone, seems like working out is a common distraction that helps in many ways. I need to start.

I hope you get thru this. Working out will help. Cardio like walking outside sometimes is best. I do know your pain and it dulls and someday it will get easier...it will. Know that people care - even ones that do not even know you!

Hang in there and I hope you can enjoy your weekend.

Thanks Ali36, once it warms up here that's my plan. I know people care but with the expection of this site, I haven't talked about my seperation, anxiety, or pain to anyone else. Because of the wonderful folks here and their advice, I plan on attending my first divorce care meeting on Monday.

LOVE the support here. Great responses. @LostAlone - you may feel lost, but brother, you are never alone. Not even close. PLEASE take a look at what I documented on my own journey under my blog. It's my username here on this site. There are so many direct and prescriptive things you can do written out for you. Start under the tab "Start Here" and absorb the truths that are there.

Love you brother. You've got this. You can do it. It's a lot to get through, a lot to process, but you'll get there. Continue writing, sharing, grieving, etc. You HAVE TO WORKOUT to burn off cortisol or you will continue quickly degrading physically. Yoga at home would even be good for you. Anything. No zero days brother. You've got this.

You could use this time to do some soul searching and building your self up, sometimes when in a relationship we lose who we are without the other person ,this time without her you could try to turn it into a positive to work on yourself , it could be your self worth , your needs or wants for the future or working on your emotions . Trying a new activity ,could also help . Is there a sport or hobby ,you haven't had time for , if so give a go now . someone before suggested the gym , physical exercise can help take your mind off your problems ,keep you busy and fit . You need to look after yourself both mentally and physically ,this important so you have the strength to get through this hard time and not let the pain consume you . I hope this helps you ,even if it's just a little ....