Hi All,

My ex-boyfried and I were together for 20 month and lived together for 10 of those months. During this whole time, he and his ex-girlfried have been communicating through texting, exchanging words like "I love you", "I miss you so much", "You mean so much to me, and I think about you every day", exchanges of kissing emojies. He was saying how he still wanted to have his drawer in her bathroom, how he wanted to stop by and visit her, how he needed somebody. This was going on through our whole relationship, whithout me knowing. 

Also, I don't know if there were any emails or phone calls between them, and also, as my friends noted, he could have went through all his texts and deleted the most sexual/loving one. He had about a week between I saw the latest texts until he finally showed me the rest of them at my request. As a whole, their interaction sounded like that between two lovers that can't be together at this point. She is married. He had an open relationship with her while she was married, but then she ultimently chose to stay with her husband and they broke up.

He won't admit that it was at the very least an emotional affair. He says they just have a very special relationship, that is deeper than friendship, and that I just don't understand it, but that there is no reason for me to feel threatned and that he loves me. He says he is not sorry about what he feels for her ( deep friendship and affection, but not romantic love) or how he expressed those feelings in his texts to her. The only thing he feels sorry for is not including me into those texts.

I'm devastated. I still love him, but I told him to move out. He never really even tried to fight for our relationship. He never asked me if there was anthing he could do to save the relationship. Just before he left, in hopes that maybe we can somehow save it, I asked him if he would consider stopping all communication with her for the sake of our relationship. He said, no. He moved out, which to me meant he values her and his feelings for her more than our relationship.

My heart is broken into thousands pieces. I miss him terribly and feel like I will never love or be able to trust anyone again. 
He texted me yesterday, saying he was missing me more than he had imagined he would. He keeps saying I'm the most important person in his life and that he loves me and that they are just friends. He will not admit it was an affair. Yet, I feel betrayed.

Also, I should mention, that about two weeks ago, he mentioned one of these weekends he wanted to visit some friends in town where his ex lives. He doesn't have any friends there, except her. He didn't invite me to come with...

Would you call it an emotional affair? Would you forgive, even though he won't admit it or apologize?

He texted me last night and asked if I'd like to have dinner in a couple of days. I told him I needed time and space to heal. I don't even know what his intentions are. Is he just feeling guilty?  does he just want to be friends? Does he want me back? 

I still love him and not sure what to do. Should I forgive or should I let him go?

Thank you!