Breakups & Divorce Support Group
Just broke up with someone or in the midst of a difficult divorce? Breaking up is difficult no matter what the circumstances are. They say that time heals all wounds, but sometimes a listening ear or a hug can work wonders for the heart. Whether you need a place to vent, someone to hold you to No Contact, or need advice about what to do, we're here to help.
It has been about 6-7 weeks since my ex left, just walked out on a 7 year While I am glad to free from her controling actions etc. I miss the good time we did share. I have this love hate thing going on. I feel really confused over it all. I lost everything but some photo's. I lost my truck to a blow engine in Texas and had to abandon everything I couldn't carry in a bag. Now I am staying with an old friend and her family. They are great, but I can't talk to them. Every time I am out with them or go into a store (walmart,etc.) and I see them interact in a playful or loving way, I have, like, "flash backs" to happier times. Yesterday, I was out with them for hours and when we got back to their home.......I lost it. I got out of the car and just walked into the woods and cried for hours......I have not cried like that since I was a kid. I can't understand why she did this to me. I loved her and cared for her the whole time we were together........what did I do to deserve all this?????? I think I have 2 of "me", lol. I go days without even thinking about the ex and the yesterday.......wow....what mind blow!
I want to let go and I NEED to let go I read all kinds of info about controlling and abusive relationships, and "understand" it was not my fault........I still have these "loving" feelings for her, someone who betrade my love and trust.......WHY??? Am I crazy? Then I go through feeling of "hate" and anger and find myself thinking "getting her back"
What is my deal?
I want to let go and I NEED to let go I read all kinds of info about controlling and abusive relationships, and "understand" it was not my fault........I still have these "loving" feelings for her, someone who betrade my love and trust.......WHY??? Am I crazy? Then I go through feeling of "hate" and anger and find myself thinking "getting her back"
What is my deal?
You don't have to be strong all the time. Your mind, body and heart are telling you that you can't. You have to heal. It's part of the rollercoaster. You'll feel better...in time. ((Hugs)).
Forgive yourself, allow yourself to grieve. Treat yourself right.
btw, your username gives me heartache because one of our dogs names was panda and he kept the dogs. she was so attached to me and followed me everywhere i went. it breaks my heart thinking that she wonders where i am everyday:(