Breakups & Divorce Support Group
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I'm feeling a bit unsettled tonight. Maybe it's the 13 hours I put in at work today and the fact that I get 4-5 hours of sleep more often than 6+ hours of sleep.
There's a long story leading to why my marriage is over but a lot has to do with his depression, neglect of himself, neglect of me, neglect of our relationship and my PTSD from his past nonsense. I just don't feel good. I am saddened that things have come to this point. We have been together for 10 going on 11 years and have been married for 4 of those years. I remember how amazing of a team we use to be and I look at where it ended up and it's just upsetting.
I don't have many people to talk to because the PTSD is too much for them and they have either walked away or they're so judgmental that I find I defend myself more than enjoying the company of "friends" so I just stopped trying with them.
Sorry guys, I logged in tonight thinking I could type more but I just hit a wall mentally. That happens sometimes. Maybe I'll try another time. Thanks for reading...
There's a long story leading to why my marriage is over but a lot has to do with his depression, neglect of himself, neglect of me, neglect of our relationship and my PTSD from his past nonsense. I just don't feel good. I am saddened that things have come to this point. We have been together for 10 going on 11 years and have been married for 4 of those years. I remember how amazing of a team we use to be and I look at where it ended up and it's just upsetting.
I don't have many people to talk to because the PTSD is too much for them and they have either walked away or they're so judgmental that I find I defend myself more than enjoying the company of "friends" so I just stopped trying with them.
Sorry guys, I logged in tonight thinking I could type more but I just hit a wall mentally. That happens sometimes. Maybe I'll try another time. Thanks for reading...
Express gratitude, pray or meditate. Some days I meditate for 90 minutes before I can face the world. Of course sleeping 5 hours s night gives me that time to be able to meditate and then get up on time.
I actually just came back from doing my share of cleaning our old apartment. I left the keys on the counter for the landlord and took one more walk through the apartment. The past six months or so came flooding back like a movie reel in my head. How I used to play guitar on the living room or watch TV at 1AM when I couldn't sleep, how I set up my sleeping bag and a bunch of pillows and blankets on the floor the last time he triggered me so badly I couldn't stop shaking and crying and the only thing that made me feel remotely grounded was to create a "nest" in the middle of my living room on the floor, and so much more. That apartment never felt like our home and I never called it as such. I would leave work or a restaurant/bar with a friend and say that I was heading back to "the city" not back "home."
sleep is weird.