well i am new at this sight i guess i am looking for advice or answers i dont know, but my husband and i are seperated right now we are probably headed for an divorce my husband told me he was addicted to cocaine wich explaines the paychecks that i never saw ,not coming home for a day or two broke no money for rent or other bills,just when it starts to look like we are doing good it gets worse. my health is going down and he seems to be the only one living freely oh lets not forget the infidelty long hair in the bath tub(wich is not mine) phone calls text messages always breaking up getting back together. but drug addiction i cant take  this in my marriage my health is already going down due to stress and that only leads to distruction he says he is not ready to give it up and can stop when he wants to and right now he says he is not ready so i left . i want my marriage but i dont want all this now he feels like i left him to struggle by himself . he doesnt call me and i always seem to call him to make sure he is ok or to make sure he has something to eat .he doesnt seem to care about me . where is the man that said he would never hurt me where is the man that said he loved me? how do i pick up and start over again?i am so broken. and i think he has someone else. why does it seem like i am the one suffering and he living life without a care ? did i mention he had women in our bed ?i stayed and took all of this without no idea of a drug habit that he had .can someone tell me why this happens to the good people in the relationship ?can someone tell me how to cope ?