I keep once again bouncing back and forth with my emotions. I go from really hating him because I remember that he chooses to chat with his women with out any regard to me and the kids. I also remember all the lying and how he can change a story to make it seem like he is doing nothing wrong. Then I feel sad because he choice to chat with the other women and he was suppose to love me and because of that he should never want to hurt me. I can't stand the fact that he is choosing someone else over me, when he tells me that it was never that he chose them over me, that they where not his priority, that it had nothing to do with me. He always said he could not explain it. If they mean nothing to him he broke up a marriage over nothing. I do know it is an addiction and it was to fill the void he felt lacking in himself, they make him feel so great and wonderful,(my therapist)but why if he cared so much did he not really go get counseling and try to keep our marriage together. Believe me there where many issues that I was willing to ignore that I can't believe now I was going to, but that is how much I wanted to try again if he just stopped talking to these women he meets on the internet. I need to get out of my funk because I know that is what it is. I need to move on and right now I am stuck in this crappy emotion. Thanks for letting me vent.