Today turned to shit pretty quickly. I slept way too late so when my husband called me I was already feeling a bit disoriented. Anyways, today was supposed to be an awesome day filled with friends but here I am sitting on the couch in front of the tv yet again.

I didn't realize it but a really good friend of mine had invited my stbx to her bday tonight. It was a FB event and for some reason it never even occurred to me to look for him in the invites.

So on the phone we talk for a bit here and there, and he keeps hinting at coming over. He says he has a present for me and he just wants to lay his head on my shoulder. It should have tipped me off that he told me his ex wife picked up the boys because

it was supposed to be his weekend with them.

Anyways I tell him I have a very busy day but maybe after I shower alert he can come over for a bit.

This then leads to him saying that he saw my friend's get together and although he didn't rsvp he figured we would go. He even got a sitter arranged and everything.

well I am so taken off guard that I start getting emotional and said I didn't even know he was invited. 

He said that he thought since we were working on things this would be a good time to have fun and see friends.

THESE PEOPLE WERE MY FRIENDS WAY BEFORE I MET HIM

So I said that I didn't feel right about this and that we'd only hung out a couplenof times this week after an almost two month hiatus.

I told him that he didn't even ask me or attempt to plan any of it with me he just did all of it. I told him I felt manipulated and he said he would never do that.

bu now I'm crying and just pretty pissed because this always happens when I would try to go do anything without him. He would make an issue of it and turn it into a huge ordeal so finally I had just stopped trying to see any of my friends for years if he wasn't going to be with me.

well that sucked a lot because he would always have his kids so basically I never got a moment away from him or his kids.

anyways, I told him that

i thought that yes, he def would manipulate me and I hung up.

i immediately paid the phone bill so that I could transfer his phone into his name and I blocked him and his family and my ex friend on FB 

On top of it all he comes over and starts pounding on the door. I told him to leave or I was calling the cops 

so i wa so upset and felt so betrayed that I posted a FB status telling my "friends" and "family" to pick a side. Since my friends and all of my family still keep in touch with him although his family and friends don't with me.

That only led to my mom of all people saying since he didn't do anything to her that it is hard to do that.

WOW

I told her that I hoped they'd all be happy together.

why can't my friends and family see that it is killing me to be in this too!

just because I am trying to do what I need to do for me and my daughter they act as if I'm the bad guy 

i was trying to keep it all cordial and above bar but today was it.

he didn't even ask me anything! I had another friend's get together and my work party to go to tonight but now I just feel like shit and don't want to see anyone

i feel so alone