Me and my ex of two years broke up about a month ago. I keep thinking I am doing fine, and the memories keep creeping up. He was supposed to visit me this week for Thanksgiving but obviously we canceled that plane ticket. It's so hard to think of everything we had planned in our future from what we would name our kids to what our backyard would look like. I always hold out hope maybe he'll change for the best and stop being a pathological liar, but it never changes. I haven't spoken to him in two weeks and it's killing me. I would at least like to talk to him as a friend, I feel like I lost my best friend. Things are going better it's just I keep thinking of what our future was supposed to be. I know I deserve better and everytime I tried helping him he turned it into my problem. Someday hopefully he will grow up and realize how the world really is. It's hard to be with somone who constantly needs add meds to function, and is just off the walls. On top of that constatly lies about stupid things. I know I will be ok, it's just that the thoughts keep coming up.