I found when I first moved out and filed for divorce I felt free, happy and relief. Now the waves of negative emotions and grief are surfacing. I am grieving the relationship I could not have with my ex, the expectations of a man who could love me, hear me and have empathy from time to time. Nope, I married a narcissits that pecked away at my heart slowly. I am still seeing stuff now that I was in denial of. COuld someone really be that manipulative? Yes, but i just don't think that way so hard to understand someone so selfish and all about themselves no matter who they step on.
Really want this pattern out of my life, I dropped 2 narcissit friends at the same time of leaving my ex...cleaned out the closet :) Still sometimes i feel raw as this is a new pattern and I am not used to it, even if it is healthier. Does anyone else feel that?
I know its not the same but I feel the same pain. I was married at 17 and had two children with my first husband, he was a violent alcoholic. I found the courage to leave after 13 years and met the love of my life, i had another child and we were happy, after 12 good years together he died of cancer leaving me a widow with 3 children at the age of 42. After 6 years of finding the...
Feeling how my childhood of all forms of abuse and my abusive marriage has fucked my current life and future. Feel like dying. I am sorry. Therapist tried to help me understand my shitty past. Apparently if I look critically I am not garbage even if I feel that way and want to die.