I appreciate everyone who commented on my last post, thank you. I soo appreciate the support.
I find myself on this Sunday night, thinking about all of the manipulation he put me through. It's made me honestly question myself. Why did I allow myself to be manipulated in so many ways? Why did I accept someone's half assed effort. Why did I let someone emotionally abuse me for years? I was doing amazing things in 2017 UNTIL I TOOK HIM BACK. And the fucking irony, I took him back and let him waste my time. I took back someone who couldn't be honest with me and thought his cheating behavior was okay as long as he wasn't caught. I took back someone who hurt me and then blamed me for it.
Now here I am, its 2018. I've endured so much from this "man". He emotionally abused me, lied to me, cheated on me, led me on about a future together and most of all wasted my time. I'm tired of being the girl where the only time he cares about me is when I am about to leave. I let him control my decision making which could've put me in a much better living situation, but I listened to him. I listened to a "man" who couldn't drive across town to eat food i made for him.
If I could see myself right now, I wouldn't even know me.
Thanks for letting me vent ❤
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