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The manipulation

Biggiesmallz
Biggiesmallz

Good evening, 



I appreciate everyone who commented on my last post, thank you.  I soo appreciate the support.


I find myself on this Sunday night,  thinking about all of the manipulation he put me through.  It's made me honestly question myself. Why did I allow myself to be manipulated in so many ways? Why did I accept someone's half assed effort. Why did I let someone emotionally abuse me for years? I was doing amazing things in 2017 UNTIL I TOOK HIM BACK.  And the fucking irony, I took him back and let him waste my time.  I took back someone who couldn't be honest with me and thought his cheating behavior was okay as long as he wasn't caught.  I took back someone who hurt me and then blamed me for it. 



Now here I am,  its 2018. I've endured so much from this "man". He emotionally abused me, lied to me, cheated on me, led me on about a future together and most of all wasted my time.  I'm tired of being the girl where the only time he cares about me is when I am about to leave.  I let him control my decision making which could've put me in a much better living situation, but I listened to him.  I listened to a "man" who couldn't drive across town to eat food i made for him.  


If I could see myself right now,  I wouldn't even know me. 



Thanks for letting me vent ❤


Lavender80
Lavender80
This was a great post for all of us who are tempted to give chances to an abuser. Thanks for sharing.
Kim1963
Kim1963
Wow-we could be mirror images of each other. I am in such a similar situation and I too know what was done to me and how I was used and tossed aside. I gave 110% and got back 50% and was ok with that.
MemphisWH
MemphisWH
Keep up the great work, healing yourself and focusing on yourself.
You cant change the past so don't look back.

Keep the NC up, and look forward to what you want in your life.

Remember to keep a journal, or even vent here all you need.
Diane22
Diane22
Besides the cheating I have been down the same road as you. Manipulation and mental abuse for 5 years. He just actually left me 2 months ago and I cant for the life of me understand why I am so sad. It was me who gave 10000% and he gave maybe 10% sometimes if that. And yet I just keep hoping he will change his mind and want to be together. I wish I could get to a point of hating him. I admire your strength.
Masterno
Masterno
I wasn't cheated on. But I was manipulated. Like you had hope and plans for the future. Than poof.

But it's about them not us. It's good you are angry. Remember that when part of you wants to give a second chance.

You are human. We all make mistakes. Forgive yourself. You know now what to look out for. It's a tough lesson (I'm right there with you). The best way to get back is to have a happy life.
cbgrace1980
cbgrace1980
Feel free to vent anytime! Have you thought about speaking with a counselor? He or she would definitely be able to help you figure you why you may have stayed so long, and how to set boundaries to prevent this in the future. You are loved here and we are here to help, too.