First off you need to know that going to a therapist can only help you. They will help you put all of this into perspective and help you to not feel like you are going crazy. I am sorry you are going through all of this. {{{Hugs}}}

It's just that I've tryed therapy before and it has never helped and two I don't want my parents to know how I feel I don't want them to think that I feel like this I want them to be happy!

Check with your school counselor they usually
have People in the district to help. I think our town
Always had to chip in.

Alateen is another great program for expressing
Yourself in a healthy manor from living in a
dysfunctional and/or alcoholic Home. HUGS

Ineedhelp, they should be helping you not
The other way around. They are the adults
Not you. HUGS

But I don't know how to tell them how I feel...

I will let others chime in, i am not a parent

But i was a child of divorce in a dysfunctional
Alcoholic home and no you could not tell
Them anything. Alateen is a great program
If they have it in your area, i wish i had it as
a child. Would have saved me from a lot
Of heartache. HUGS

As a parent of two, going through a divorce, I wish my kids would open up and talk to me about how they feel. I've asked them a couple of times if they have any questions, or how they're feeling. They haven't said much. They're boys, and this could be part of it. But I see it as my job to create an environment where they feel comfortable talking to me when they're ready.

Your parents, who both have done very visible things counter-productive to a successful marriage, may be feeling guilty about their actions, and as a result unsure of how to talk to you and your brother. Please remember that they are the adults, their adult actions are causing all of these family changes. It's their responsibility to check in with their kids, they should be asking you how you're doing. If they do ask, for your own sake, be honest with them. If you have to bring up the subject yourself, please do it. You can be frank and honest and kind and just say what you've written here. Keeping things bottled up only leads to more trouble for everyone down the road. Opening up the lines of communication can ease things for everyone. It's hard at first, but so important.

As far as your brother, just remember that boys generally have a harder time expressing their emotions. He may be feeling as much conflict and pain as you but maybe masks it more easily. Or maybe he just pushes it away (not good).

It's great that you're reaching out. I know your library has books on coping with divorced parents. If you haven't already, I suggest reading one or two.

Good luck to your and your family.

It's very difficult to digest, as a 15 year old, that your parents won't necessarily stay together forever. You sound like a good kid, and I can tell that all you want is for them to be happy. What if for them to be happy they have to live without each other? They will still have some things in common, one of them being that they both love you and you love them both. They are still your Mom and Dad even if they aren't husband and wife to each other. Divorce is harsh for the couple, especially if they have to consider their children's feelings. Talk to them. Tell them how you feel and let them know that you want nothing but happiness for them, whether or not they're together. I know that right now it feels like the world is falling apart, but when you see your parents find new partners and when you see that they are finally happy, you'll realize that splitting up may not be such a bad thing. *Hugs* you'll grow from this. Hang in there. I believe that good days are right around the corner for you!

As much as parents try not to...it usually ends up in a war over "who was right" in a divorce with the kids as judges. If you give it time, your parents will each calm down and get used to the fact that you're going to continue to love each of them the same.

And it's OKAY to hate the divorce. It IS ripping the life that you've known apart.

What I can tell you...is that there IS life on the other side. Different...but overall just as good. Some things will be worse, some will be better. (Neither my ex nor I found new partners that we finally found "happiness" with. And that's fine too. As I said, life is different, but just as good.)

Are you on any immune suppressants for the ITP? If so, that could be adding significantly to how hard this is all hitting you...especially if you're on steroids. Have you joined any support groups for it? I found this online quickly...you might want to check it out.

https://www.pdsa.org/

One day at a time, and you'll make it through this. Hugs, Patti

Sorry for all the problems you're dealing with. none of it is your fault. It's a good idea to try to find a calm time to talk with both of your parents separately and tell them whatever you're feeling or thinking. If you found a good therapist, it would help. You definitely need to find some way to be able to vent your feelings and thoughts without thinking that you're going crazy. You are going through a very rough Time which is normal considering the circumstances you can't control. Feel free to request me to be your friend if you want.