I am stuck. Hopelessly stuck in a terrible marriage to a financially abusive, passive aggressive, fast cycling manic bi-polar. I also suspect that my "husband" may be bi-sexual. In recent years one openly gay man 15 yrs his senior gave him a large "loan". He said it was to help our family while my husband got back on his feet after crashing a company vehicle. (His fault, distracted driving and manic behavior caused him to rear end someone) I was grateful then and helped to repay the nice man as fast as I could. I suspect the "loan" was just a part of the money he recieved from this man. Then there's the "friends" that never look at me right. He brought a young man to our home just as I was leaving for my night shift. He introduced this man in his early 20's as his friend from work. Ok... My husband is 30 at this time. Well i stuck around and did the hostess thing, thinking this boy would leave before I went to work. Nope. They both acted very awkward and I left, late for work. My husband spent the night with a feminine looking young man I did not know. Fast forward and my husband recieved a car from a male "friend". It was an old camry but still...why are these men giving him things. He steals things constantly. Little things...a pen here, an ornament from his bosses desk, peoples mail from vacant residences. He works for the USPS btw. He constantly looses jobs or gets into trouble at work. I have had to sale almost every personal item I had from before our marriage just to keep us afloat. This is on top of always making the lions share of our income. I pawned my wedding ring and engagement ring to pay the electric bill once, I told him, "If you love me get back to work and give me my rings back as proof." I never saw them again. He just said he didnt have the money and that was that. No apologies. During one of his mental health crises he landed himself in the hospital for 7 days. No insurance. He was admitted because he stopped eating, was smoking 60 to 80 cigarettes a day and had stopped sleeping. He was lying, stealing and very close to landing himself in jail chasing weed. The ER said he was so ill his heart was getting damaged and he had lung damage. After getting rested up and re-fed he had the worst manic episode of his life. He admitted that he didnt feel things like other people. He has no empathy. Hes a sociopath. I sent him to therapy but he was just playing. He stopped after a few visits. He never takes his medication as prescribed. He says weed works better than the prescribed drugs. Well ok, but its illegal here and its expensive. I really want out. It would be the best for me but there's one stupid catch. MEDICAL INSURANCE. How stupid is it that I have to stay married to a devil to have medical coverage? When our daughter was born she suffered brain damage. After an exausting journey through the medical system our genetics were tested. My daughter has a genetic anomoly that results from my husband and I having a common ancestor or ancestors. We are from a small town and evidently not everyone told the truth about who had kids by whom. This was life changing. I had 4 miscarriages and a disabled daughter by this man before finding this out. Now sex just seems gross, and pregnancy is a fear that makes my knees weak. I can't go through that again. I am 34 yrs old and fairly healthy but I want to be steralized. I love children and im good with them but I cant bring myself to make another one. The last time my husband and I had sex he "stealthed" me. I was drinking and not paying attention and he removed the condom. I went pshyco. I told him I would not have another child with him and would have an abortion if he got me pregnant again against my wishes. So now I've just stopped having sex with him. I have been treated for BV after having sex with him the last 2 times. I am 34 and this is the very first case of BV ive ever had. I havent been with another man since 2001. I know hes cheating but I cant catch him because I think he's cheating with male co-workers. How on earth am I going to get away from this?