Sorry to hear this. My stbx played me well. She was caught cheating early into our marriage, but I loved her and wanted to make it work. I gave it my all to the point it was affecting my health and she enjoyed watching me go down hill health wise. We drifted apart for years with her refusing to see a counsler. Claims its all my fault. When you give some one you love your heart they know right wear to cut you and make you bleed. Sucks their is people out there that do this to others.
Hold your head high. Life gets better. I think you have to get to the point your happy being alone first, and not look for happiness from others.

I agree with funone. I know that happiness comes from within as I am learning. You have to learn to love yourself; That takes some hard work but I know WE can do it!

I know this feeling. I feel like a dodged a bullet when I realized she was having unprotected sex with the other man. Without getting too graphic...I wore protection as she didn't take birth control pills. After I discovered the relationship, I soon discovered the birth control pills hidden in a drawer. It didn't occur to me until much later that...holy crap!...she was having sex with me while having sex with the other man. Who knows if I could have caught an STD but now glad that I was wearing protection.

Thank you all for your kind words. It sucks that he was my heart and I was just a notch in his belt. I do know that I need to build myself up and learn to love me first