Breakups & Divorce Support Group
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I am so embarrassed to be back here again. I joined in 2011 stayed a little bit
until I felt strong enough to move on. I spent a year being celibate before moving on to my next relationship. I admit is was bad from the beginning constant arguments.
I don't smoke or do drugs, however this person smoked cigarettes(a pack a day) marijuana laced with crack and a little over a 12 pack a day. however, she was so gorgeous you would never believe what I'm telling you. She was also very cunning and convincing that you would believe she was the sweetest person in the world.
People warned me that something was wrong but I was so hurt from the past that I just wanted to believe this person who was unemployed after being on unemployment for 2 years and having it expire just before meeting her was just a victim of society.
She would end up ripping my heart out. She caused me to become aggressive with her twice and on the second occasion and end of our relationship used it as an excuse to be with someone the very next day.
Typing this I feel so ashamed and stupid but when going through it I felt it was so right. I have so much pain and desire to still be with her and I'm angry at myself for not trusting God and letting go. What is wrong with me. I feel so pathetic at this time. I made over 60 thousand dollars last year and I have nothing to show. I paid her rent for the last 6 months and got kicked out every 2 weeks and allowed to come back just in time to make the rent payments. 5 years ago I would have never tolerated something like this but today I feel like i let her down.
until I felt strong enough to move on. I spent a year being celibate before moving on to my next relationship. I admit is was bad from the beginning constant arguments.
I don't smoke or do drugs, however this person smoked cigarettes(a pack a day) marijuana laced with crack and a little over a 12 pack a day. however, she was so gorgeous you would never believe what I'm telling you. She was also very cunning and convincing that you would believe she was the sweetest person in the world.
People warned me that something was wrong but I was so hurt from the past that I just wanted to believe this person who was unemployed after being on unemployment for 2 years and having it expire just before meeting her was just a victim of society.
She would end up ripping my heart out. She caused me to become aggressive with her twice and on the second occasion and end of our relationship used it as an excuse to be with someone the very next day.
Typing this I feel so ashamed and stupid but when going through it I felt it was so right. I have so much pain and desire to still be with her and I'm angry at myself for not trusting God and letting go. What is wrong with me. I feel so pathetic at this time. I made over 60 thousand dollars last year and I have nothing to show. I paid her rent for the last 6 months and got kicked out every 2 weeks and allowed to come back just in time to make the rent payments. 5 years ago I would have never tolerated something like this but today I feel like i let her down.
I am confused as to how you let her down? What am I missing?
(hugs)
I'll admit one sentence has me perplexed. She "caused you to be aggressive"? No. You WERE aggressive based on your reactions to her actions.
She sounds like a user, blinded by beauty and likely some good stories in her part to explain everything.