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I was with my bf for 1.5 years. We have broken up a few times and recently we tried to work things out which they did not. Tonight I googled his on line dating name and it took me to a forum that he has been writing on since Dec of 2014. We got together is april of 2014. I was able to read everything he wrote on there. He talked about me telling people I have borderline personality disorder and how awful and crazyI was. There were post about him meeting up with his ex gf for drinks out and at his house while we were together, the description of his FIRST M/F/M experience, Described how him and his married friend fucked some girl in a hotel, talked about how he was on dating websites while we were together, went on double date with 2 young women with a differnet married friend, talked negatively about my kids and me and went on and on about me having a mental illness.
I have no idea why I was able to see all of this raw material. He must have been on my computer at some point and never logged out or maybe it is all public. IDK but I read so many disturbing things that are the raw truth. I have not slept all night and I will never talk to him again.
I was suffering and grieving . Its unbelievable and it fucking hurts. Although I did have trust issues I never thought he was cheating on me of lying about who he was going out with when he said he was going out with his friend. I am in shock and I do suffer from depression so all the mental illness stuff hurts so bad
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I have no idea why I was able to see all of this raw material. He must have been on my computer at some point and never logged out or maybe it is all public. IDK but I read so many disturbing things that are the raw truth. I have not slept all night and I will never talk to him again.
I was suffering and grieving . Its unbelievable and it fucking hurts. Although I did have trust issues I never thought he was cheating on me of lying about who he was going out with when he said he was going out with his friend. I am in shock and I do suffer from depression so all the mental illness stuff hurts so bad
Please say something kind
It is shocking for sure. Be gentle with yourself during this time. I am almost 2 years out now from most of the drama surrounding my catching him cheating, our 2 separations, etc. Our divorce was final this past summer. It is easier to stomach it now, but I also try not to think about the details very often to be honest. Reading that was not pleasant at all. However, it has given me a concrete, irrefutable thing to hold onto in the times that have followed. Times when I started to miss him, times when he wanted to come back, all of those things. I was able to remember what he wrote and how he did that while being someone completely different to my face. And it helped me know that I deserve more and I can move on without someone like that.
You will feel the shock for a while, but I promise it will pass. Use this to help you realize how much more and how much better you deserve. Let this help fuel you to put him far behind you. ((HUGS))