I'm sorry to hear this, but just as an outsider reading this? Your husband (to put it directly) sounds like a real asshole and loser. I know that doesn't help you or erase the pain you feel and thirty-two years is a LONG time. I say, one day at a time, but knowing that it gets easier. Is there something you can do for yourself today, a gift you can give yourself? A massage? TAke yourself out somewhere? Do something nice for yourself. Buy yourself something. After that asshole, you deserve it. HA, drunk on the beach. I bet he's just as miserable.

Thanks Christine...yeah on a cruise with the girl I think he was cheating on me. Probably is drunk. Hard we have 3 children. I found out he was cheating, going to massage palors...didn't know pizza places were fronts, hookers etc. great advice one day at a time."..feel cut to my core

Find a Divorce Care group at one of the local churches in your area. You only have to pay for a workbook and you can go thru the sessions as many times as you feel you need. After the first set of sessions the rest are free because you have the work book. It really does help to be around people who know what you are going thru. Divorce Care was a huge help to me and I went thru their sessions three different times. Each time I was in a different stage of divorce and going back thru helped me a lot. I didn't feel so alone.

You are starting to feel stronger and that's good. Be kind to yourself and know that it's okay to cry or scream about the husband on the beach. I'm assuming he is going to be your ex. I found staying busy was helpful and I'm on a small farm. I stayed in these fields and worked hard. I drove my tractor way too fast as I mowed these fields. Find the things you liked to do before you met the H. Get involved in whatever interests you. I was married 33 years when I finally got my divorce. I'm almost ten years post divorce and I am doing okay. I have the farm and I love what I am doing. You will get to this point in your own time.

I am so sorry to hear about this... But after 3 years ( yea, it takes this long) you will be back together and you will embrace your new life because it will be free of worry and heartbreak and deceit if you choose to have it this way.
I know it is easy to say, but he did you a favour by liberating you to make your life exactly the way you want it and with time, you will see how much he has taken from you. My marriage ended 8 years ago and while it does hurt sometimes, I am much better off now than I was then and you will be too.
Some day you will meet someone to grow old with.
If you can, use this time to take care of your mind and body so you will attract the right person.
Much love.

Yeah divorce in final stage. Tried to find divorce care group....nothing local will try again..I am glad to hear things get bettter with time. New promotion at work will keep me busy. Read run away husband great resource recommended by therapists.

Stay strong and when runaway husband eventually realizes that the grass isn't greener on the other side, you will have moved on and not be interested...