I wrote in a couple months ago about my yoga instructor (who I was dating) leaving me for a much younger girl during a yoga retreat that we all went on back in June I was hospitalized for a week due to low blood sodium. I feel like this might have been brought on due to all the stress I was under. Anyways, kind of off subject, I have not been doing good with the whole break up. i have been driving myself crazy on Facebook stalking his and her pages trying to figure out if they are still seeing each other. I know this is so bad and immature of me to do this, but I just couldn't help myself. Well, yesterday I found out that the two of them are going on a trip to Africa together and it just broke my heart all over again. The horrible feelings from a few months ago have come flooding back and I feel like I have hit rock bottom. It just crushes me because I don't know what she has that I don't. She is 17 years younger than him. The worst part of the whole thing is that he never even had enough guts to have a conversation with me telling me that it was over. He just stopped talking to me. I just can't get over that. I wish I could just block him out of my life forever but we all belong to the same yoga studio so I am constantly reminded of him. And it just sucks that I have to change my whole life to move on. It just doesn't seem fair and I don't know what to do. Do I unfriend them from Facebook so I'm not seeing their posts anymore? How do I move past this? Do I find another yoga studio? I feel so lost and alone. I know this was probably all over the place, but thank you so much for listening. I would love to hear any advise you might have. Oh and I have tried to find counseling and was referred to a doctor after leaving the hospital, but there is a 3-4 month wait list to get in to see her!