Ok after being off & on with my ex boyfriend I did not want to get back together to break up again (I am seeing more clearly his breaking up has to do with his instability). The verbal and emotional abuse seems under control this time around (last breakup the longest one lasting one month). Anyway currently he is more unstable lately, mental health issues, ok I am seeing I am not the "epitome" of health, here just valuing this person in my life at times to the exclusion of valuing myself. Just wondering if anyone else here got back on a less involved level and how it worked out. I suggested why can't we just love eachother and not get back together just to break up again (5 breakups in under 6 months). I was ready to end it again, I stay for codependent and loneliness reasons and out of familiarity I suppose. tomorrow is my birthday and he is extemely forgetful and I didn't remind him since last week, so he has not brought it up, I am sort of hoping to just have a free day for me anyway, though it's still dissappointing to be exclusive with someone who is not "there" for me (or "all there")
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