Madison, please don't think suicide. :( I'm scared for one's that think that's the best way out. Mainly cuz I was there in my teens, and found that you can get past what your going through. So I'm real happy your reaching out. :) thank you . I'm in, on/off serious heartbreak mode. Divorce is next. So tell me what I can do for you? I'm all ears

I know the feeling but your life matters more stay strong and know there is hope

I don't know what to do. I'm scared. I've never felt this overwhelming depression before. I'm stuck between wanting to get him back or giving up. It's hard and I feel abandoned by him and the people I love most. I just don't feel like I can handle this much pain anymore :(

Do you have a friend you can go visit with for awhile? A way for you to get away from all the "reminders". I know how horrible this feels right now. You feel like your heart is literally breaking and you can't breathe. Your mind is going everywhere and nowhere at the same time. Nothing feels like it should. You just want it all to stop.
Now breathe. In and out. Slow and deep. Again. Sending a hug. Don't forget to breathe. Think of a place that makes you feel at peace. close your eyes and Go there. See it, feel it, smell it. Breath it. Even if you can only do this once, it's a start. Keep trying, it will help calm you. (yada,yada,yada, I know. My first thoughts when I started) but really does help. You need to let yourself, your mind rest. Even if for only moments at a time. The pain your going through is the worst. There is truth there. And it will pass. And you will come out ok on the other side. Have faith in yourself. And know we are here for you. Putting a prayer in for you. :)

I do have a couple I could ask to stay with, but they don't seem to understand just how severe my mental state is and have the typical "it'll be ok, move on" responses and that doesn't exactly help. I'm trying to take things minute by minute and pray things work themselves out. I do feel slightly better now that I'm on here. It's amazing how much more support I can get from complete strangers online rather than people close to me. I'm thankful for anyone on here who's reaching out to me and I know I'm only 19, but I'm here for anybody who needs anything. :)

As losingit says slow down and breathe. Are you sitting down? Ok good, now look down and your feet. They seem alright? Wonderful, ok let's put you and your feet all together again. Perfect fit, you're all back together for now. Anxiety depression maybe anger are all super powerful emotions and kick some extra adrenaline and other choice ingredients into the stew and well you guessed it here we are. Please try to keep your emotions grounded and you in control of them and not the other way. There is hope so that's the thought I'm going to leave and I'll keep some for myself too. Namaste.....

Thank you so much. I appreciate the kind words and tips to keep my emotions in control. Much appreciated :)

Hi, I want you to first know nothing and noone is worth your life. I have been there and guess what if you succeed not only will you leave behind people that love and care for you, your significant other will move on with someone else and you will be a memory. He can be a memory if you just hold on. It could be he is just going through something. I just need you to keep checking in with us and busy yourself with other things to occupy your mind. Trust me I know how it feels to lose someone you care for deeply. I had no idea my husband was seeing other women and we were in the best marriage, no arguments no issues. After I had a miscarriage things just went distant now I find out he is living with a girl 33 divorced twice with 4 damn kids. He is playing step daddy and being manipulated by her, her mom and her best friend. It's sad. He left me with all the bills the house we just bought and heartache of losing our child and our marriage. I lost my best friend and my husband. I just try to do things one step at a time. This forum has helped. I hate talking to friends and family they dont understand. My therapist helps just for me to get it out but when I leave I feel the same. Just know to check in whenever you feel like you can't do it anymore. Reach out to us that is why we are here. I'm so sorry you are going through this nothing is worth your life. I am praying for you.