It’s a new year. A year I never expected to be faced with but here I am. I have these highs and then these lows that keep taking turns. As I’ve said before, during the highs everything seems so planned and calculated. Most thoughts are met with reason and optimism. Then the lows come....My goodness, are they ever low. When they are present it’s impossible for me to see the responsibility my wife had in our marriage ending. I can’t remember the lies. I can’t imagine her having the affair. I don’t feel the betrayal. All I feel is emptiness. I see an empty side of my bed. A pillow that no longer smells like her. Her absence is equally obvious on the inside and out. Music has never been so hurtful. I dread the summer air that always takes my mind to her. How does it get better? There’s so much to let go of. It’s not fair to have to move on from what meant the world to you. I’m a collector of moments not things. As bad as her lies and betrayal were they will never compare to the countless joyful moments we’ve shared.
today was the first day of therapy in an effort to save our 14yr relationship. She says we need to start dating and find that intimacy again. Our homework was to sleep in the bed again together. Where is he? I’m so glad you asked LOL - Downstairs with his dog. I’m pretty sure I am just done. It’s exhausting when a lot of this is a no brainer in life.
Hi everyone,This is my first time posting and I am really struggling right now. I have been in a relationship for the past 4 yrs to the most wonderful man. I had been alone for quite some time since the death of my husband then spent years working on issues with my own demons (addiction). I was pretty well content with my life and wasn't looking for anyone when he came walking in to my...