It’s a new year. A year I never expected to be faced with but here I am. I have these highs and then these lows that keep taking turns. As I’ve said before, during the highs everything seems so planned and calculated. Most thoughts are met with reason and optimism. Then the lows come....My goodness, are they ever low. When they are present it’s impossible for me to see the responsibility my wife had in our marriage ending. I can’t remember the lies. I can’t imagine her having the affair. I don’t feel the betrayal. All I feel is emptiness. I see an empty side of my bed. A pillow that no longer smells like her. Her absence is equally obvious on the inside and out. Music has never been so hurtful. I dread the summer air that always takes my mind to her. How does it get better? There’s so much to let go of. It’s not fair to have to move on from what meant the world to you. I’m a collector of moments not things. As bad as her lies and betrayal were they will never compare to the countless joyful moments we’ve shared.
It has been about a month and half since I ended my relationship with my narcisist/drug addict/emotional manipulator and I still have made little progress even though the relationship was short. I have been in therapy as well but I havent been able to stop obsessing over everything that happened and the realization that the relationship was fabricated on his end. I keep ruminating on all of the...
Hi everyone. I'm new to this group. I was recently diagnosed with anxiety and panic attacks. I'm not a fan of taking medication and am wondering what others do to help relieve their anxiety or try to avoid panic attacks. I've just started meditating, which seems to be helping so far. Any advice would be appreciated.