don't focus on him asvthe center of your life. find someone who can bring u positive energy and focus on that. emotions r hard to control. they bring us joy or take us down. do find poeple who bring u joy to hang out with.

Thank you! I guess it's hard when you're use to giving you're all to someone. However I have my son that makes me happy. He has the same name as his dad and they look alike so when I look at my son I see his dad.

What advice would you give you give someone else in your exact situation? Sometimes it's easier to think about this if you were thinking about a friend, sibling, or even your own child? What do you want to teach your son? What is best for YOU? You are being extremely strong and no relationship is easy. There is no "right" or "wrong" answer here. You have to keep asking yourself what you think is best for you and your son? And listen to the faint voices that are answering inside you. Therapy, journaling, self care are all very important ways to access the answers within. You sound extremely brave!
It's so confusing when we aren't the initiator but I have to believe that there is something bigger than me at work, forcing me to create something better for myself! Since I can't see it right now....its SO HARD!! AHHH!! But time is our best friend if we can stay on the path and keep asking the questions and working on ourselves.

Thanks spiritlad this situation has been extremely difficult and it's not jus things with him I've been through a few traumatic things in my life I'm only 24! When I do talk to my ex it's hard because I don't want to cry when I try. He told me I'm an emotional wreck. I'm just thinking like you one of the reasons I'm like this. However like I said other issues as well contributes to this state that I'm in. The advice I would give someone else is don't fall in love until you everything about that person. Because at this point I wish we had never fell in love so we could have stayed friends