Hey guys. So I'm in the midst of a very hard breakup. My boyfriend of 3 years suddenly broke up with me 15 days ago. We had a life together, worked together, had two little dogs, lived together. He's getting close to 30, I am turning 24. Hes filing bankruptcy due to debt. We'd become somewhat distant the past couple months, irritable. He ended things because he said he needed space and he didn't know if he wanted to be in a relationship anymore, he didn't know if he wanted to have to answer to anyone. That half the time he felt like he loved me so much and didn't want to ever not have me by his side and half the time he felt overwhelmed and couldn't handle the stress, but the idea of not coming home to me killed him. He that night went into the spare bedroom, which broke my heart. I hadn't slept without him in over two years. Throughout the week he went back and forth on what he wanted. At one point he was kissing me, we went to dinner and by the end of the night he had said he wanted to get back to our time being special and maybe part of the week he would stay at his moms for space and then stay with me the rest of the week. I told him I didn't want to go backwards, that we weren't dating, that was 3 years ago. We have a life together now. He made plans for us for the weekend to go out, have fun and come home and have sex, and come back to bed with me. The following night we had sex. The next day he was very distant again and back to not knowing how he felt, that he was a failure, that he doesn't know where his life is going and that he loves me more than life, but I deserve better than him. He said he was going to go to his moms the next night. The next night he didn't want to go, he slept in the spare bedroom again. The next morning I tried to cuddle with him and he got angry that I wasn't giving him any space, and hadn't been. I told him I didn't know how to act around him anymore, that it was killing me having him so close but so far away. That if he wanted real space, he needed to go somewhere else. So he packed up all his stuff. When he went to leave, he kissed me many times, was crying, hugging me hard, telling me how much he loves me and he hopes that he misses me so much he comes home. Told me he didn't want to leave me. Kissed me several more times, hard. And he left. He got a new phone so I now have no way to contact him. It's been 8 days since he left me. I saw him 3 days after he left and he asked me if I were okay, asked for a hug, kept trying to talk to me and when he hugged me, he rubbed my back for more than a minute and had his head in my hair. Was very sad. Told me the new place he's going he doesn't like and he wants everything to be okay. Told me to take care and had tears in his eyes. I don't know how to handle this or what to do.