Hey Everyone, So we have been separated since MAY. I went through every emotion. Last week I had a great week, I even talked to my husband and we discussed seeing each other. I was excited as I thought this was what I wanted. Well Thursday night, he sent me a message saying, Im off work now, Im going to shower and go to bed. Well I have been with him for 8 years and I know he can never just go to bed. So I questioned him as we had a date planned for Friday afternoon. He messaged me at 10am Friday morning and said hey whats up! Are you ready to see me? maybe we can even get it on! 

I replied, is this really the type of man yo uwant to be? He asked me what do you mean? I said, do you really think this is a great way to treat me?He said I have no f*cking clue what your talking about. So I replied... well, I know you went out with someone last night, and now your asking to have sex with me today. Do you really want to treat your wife like this? Is this how you want your daughter to see her mother going through these emotions? He went ballistic and accused me of cheating and being a whore. (I am not seeiing anyone)

Finally I said, listen, our daughter is going to get her heart broken when shes is 15/16 years old. She is going to want her daddy. Do you think you are being a positive role model to her and going to be able to give her the best advice, considering you are with 2 women within 12 hours of ewach other? This got through to him. 

He unloaded a bunch of stuff on me about every single woman who has done him wrong. He said I am happy dating someone who doesnt hear every emotion I am going through. Its easier for me. He then proceeded to say, I saw a woman last night, I intend to see her tonight, and hopefully we can see each other the remainder of the weekend as well. She makes me feel good about myself. But I love you and I miss you and I want to continue what we are together as well.

I had and stil have no idea how to take that. I am emotional. I have cried, I have wept, I have sobbed, I have wailed. Ihave had every sort of ugly cry there is to be had. Now I am angry. He gives me the option to either accept him the way he is, or nothing at all.

one moment I am weak and want to accept it, the next i am a strong independant woman who wont have it that way. I have talked to my support friends and they are getting sick of it. ITs been 4 days and I am only getting more obsessive about this latest development. 

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME, LISTEN TO ME, OFFER ME ADVICE. MY BRAIN IS ACHING!!!