4/29/17 Update I go No Contact my ex calls me at 8:26am the facetime me at 8:26 am then calls three times at 9:38 9:29  9:24 am sends me a text at 9:32 saying

I do not hate you, in fact I still love you but you hurt me to my core while also killing my self esteem, Now that I am my self esteem, Now that I am completely removed from the situation, I've had time reflect and there are a number of things that should've been addressed over a year ago..... I simply don't look at you the same nor do I know how to get back what we had.... which is more hurtful because I was so free and in love with you

Then I get a facetime call at 11:06am  I have responded to nothing is the no contacting working or is she trying to friend zone me. 

4/26/17 I dated this girl for two years well we went the  I ask for it first space hoping it would give us sometime to sort through things because she was always cussing and going off for small things, going into violent rages, tearing up stuff in my house, getting in my face, then break down into crying fits and say it's my actions that's causing I would reply, " ok but we have to look at what each other does to contribute to this." Her reply yelling, "See I refuse to acknowledge what I do until you do and apologize for you actions hurting me." Her response was.  she could never named it what I was doing. She said I made her feel like she was useless to me my reply "Baby girl you help me a lot." I invited her to live with me she cook for me great meals but would damage the stove and I was renting so I said nicely the food was awsome but could you help me take care of the appliances because they will take my deposit. She goes off saying I care more about the stove than her feelings. She would take 30 minute showers so I said baby can you use a little less water because it was killing my bills. I always paid for everything we did and when I would ask her to just sometime pay for a cheeseburger she saw that as a problem. She said she wanted to be with a man that could take care of all the bills and didn't want her money to be accounted for nothing. Anytime a woman was taken care of she loved it but if I mention a woman who made her own money she said that all you try to talk about are say whatever. So we took a few days apart not talking. So I said lets go for an outing she agreed, I took her to our first dating place and purposed because I wanted to let her know I loved her and wanted to work through it she said she didn't know. She said I'm not saying no and I said you didn't say yes. We go out again and when I took her home this time I ask do you want this she says I'm not in a good place with you. So I back off no contact. On the second day she calls. I didn't answer so she pops up over to my house she says she has to get her stuff but there was nothing there. As she was walking out I said can I have a hug she did and we kissed and she left. A girl I know posted something on her wall saying congrats to a student of mine I coached and she send me a text going off. I didn't respond. I text her it was good seeing you and holding you on my arms. She text back Y. I didn't respond. Her girlfriends are all in her ear telling her she doesn't need this. Today she text me to get a box from me I say ok. I say hey lets set a date to go get a drink or something. Her response Why? Then she says in an antagonistic voice you know since I have had this time from you I really begin to realize how much on me I lost  I say ok sorry to hear that. Then she try's to say I was emotionally abusive, but she was the one who would go off tearing stuff up in my house, kicked a dent in my car, begin lying to me about wear she was going ..... hitting me and sometimes I would have to grab her to stop her from being so destructive. Then she would say it's my fault we are in this state and I need to get help. But my problem she a professional model and it's like a drug dam she is hot... goes out and gets hammered drinking I didn't add this at first but now I just can't tell half the truth.....