Hello all, I'm new. Just would love to get some feedback on my situation.
my mother is a recovering alcoholic with borderline personality disorder and my father died of terminal illness four years ago.
three and a half years ago she got sober and while I was away at school she moved a man who is a recovering heroin addict and his two young chidren into our house, I never new these people prior to that.
i am home for the holidays on a three month break in my studies and I am living in my old house again.
I am so devastated seeing how she treats this man and his children so much better than she treated my brother and I growing up. Her and this man never married so the situation is really ambiguous but his daughter considers me and my mom her family which only adds confusion to the situation because I don't reciprocate. I didn't come home for almost three years and then when I got back on track with school i started leaning more on my family and couldn't afford to stay anywhere else. I want to remain focused on my end goal and graduate in 2021 but I don't think I can take any more of this and want to just leave the house today and never see these people again. She is paying for my school and I've already asked her it I can stay with a friend for the rest of the break but because of my bipolar she "doesn't trust that" and said she will cut off my studies if I leave.
in the time I was away from home ironically all of my mood symptoms went away and in the past few weeks since being back, they are back again.
i am going through an online course from home and haven't been able to focus on my studies since I've been here. So I know a new environment would help me to study for the final exam. Am I trying to run away or is this emotionally abusive past triggering me?
how is it that I am being asked to share something with this other mans children that I never had growing up?
3 years later or rather 9. I think I finally realized what I encountered was that every breakup and moment of separation the knife was plunged Deeper by the things that he would do with no remorse. Every time I take a step forward I take one back even this time when I caught myself dealing with him but being detached he still fooled me to a higher extent by even asking me for gas money so that he...
hello I posted under heavy heart so much consuming me just need to hear from someone else my few friends are tired of listening feeling hopeless