Definitely scary, and depressing. I cried a lot the first few nights. But then it gets better. There is a calm and peace in my home that I never knew while married. But just because it's scary and sad doesn't mean it's bad. Just suffer through it. Things will get better. Make some new traditions in your new home. Decorate it up the way you like it, and in no time it will feel like home.

I had been moving some of my stuff into my new apartment after work. One night, after unloading the car, it wouldn't start, and I suspected the battery in the new-fangled key. My spare was at the house with my ex. Made plans for her to bring me the spare key in the morning because our son was already sleeping.

So I spread out the one blanket and few peices of clothing that I had happened to have there, the 19" TV and DVD player, and watched Sherlock Holmes (it was the only one I had). I had a beer for dinner because it was the only thing in the fridge. Slept on the blanket over the hard-wood floors. First night in my new place.

Just had to laugh at what life throws us some times. But it was what it was. What's the point of wishing it was something different? Eventually I moved the rest of my stuff in, made it my home, and I'm so happy with that part of my new life. I guess it helped that we had been so distant for so many years that I hadn't really worried about feeling lonely in a long time. I had already just broken up with a girlfriend and was looking forward to some alone time (I had been living with my ex for about 8 months while unemployed).

Try looking at it like taking a vacation with yourself; look forward to getting to know yourself again :-)

I cried a LOT the first several weeks.
Its amazing now to look back on the person I was and remember feeling like I'd be that weak forever.

You WILL be lonely, depressed, scared, etc. But anything truly worth having in this life requires a fight.

He was (is?) an over the road truck driver - I was already alone for most of the relationship anyway. Living on my own just meant I didn't have to guess when he was going to be home, when he was going to leave again and adjusting my schedule for those things. It was actually quite freeing. I don't remember being any more depressed/lonely than I was in the marriage itself - it all blended together.

xoxo

The first night will be the hardest... Lean on friends and family if you need...or on us here! I cried the entire first night as soon as the movers left. I cried because I couldn't find light switched, and because I kept opening the utility closet thinking it was the laundry room door...and then the hardest part of all...I had to walk around the house that night to make sure all the doors were secure, my ex always did that.

But then the next day was a little better and I started focusing on making my new house my home. Did tons of online shopping :)

I wish you luck....and remember we are here if you need us!