I understand that mistakes are a human thing. I understand that I made mistakes in my marriage and in choosing a partner who didn't have the capacity for honesty and faithfulness. My concern now is seeing that I don't repeat those mistakes. I know that I can't fix anyone but myself. I know that if I am choosing a "sick" partner that that reflects on my own sickness. I hope that I can recognize that and make better choices today. I am aware that divorce has given me a chance to really step back, get to know myself in an honest way, and to see the kind of man I truly am. I have choices and don't mind the idea of making mistakes in the future, as that is inevitable. I just don't want a repetition of my older mistakes. I want to be with someone who can stand up for themselves. I want to be with someone who doesn't cheat. I want to be with someone who values me the way that I am. When I write those three things, they seem obvious and clear and in some ways they are. I am hopeful that my divorce has brought about clear, positive change in my life.
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