It's so hard to make a long story short but my ex and i broke up two months ago, he said nothing he was doing was enough to prove his love to me, he was moody for like a week, different, like he just shut me out emotionally. i said maybe we needed some space. we had been married and divorced, hadnt really talked in over a year. we started slow rebuilding our friendship, talking about the issues we had in our marraige, how much i hurt him, acknowledging how he hurt me, how he had missed me these last few years (been divorced three years).  whoever he was with he would always call me, to talk, when he was in pain, hurting, and i have always been there for him at his lowest times. for twelve years. i had some insecurities, some anger i guess and i expressed them from the beginning and told him with time and his behavior it would get better and it was. I was never acting jealous, going through his phone or questioning him, its just when he would ask i would answer honestly. so After living together for the past eight months, up all night talking on weekends, spending so much quality time together alone and as a family with our son, all his idea, outings he would plan just for us. anyway its what has happened after the "break" that is bothering me so much. he literally met a woman at a club and almost immediately moved in with her, telling me she is unlike any woman he has ever met, though no other woman made him forget about me she is different it was love at first sight. she has a four year old and a nine year old he is babysitting her kids while my son is home alone. he brought her son over my home to get his hair cut a day after he told me about her, when he had known her two weeks, he brought her to my home a week after that even tho i expressed how hurt i was he brought the son here, and took my son to her home for a weekend.we were still communicating facetime tell me how pretty i look, i was so sad he would tell me to get myself together snap out of it, when i missed work he fussed he tells me to eat i am losing weight. so confusing, my friends say he is hurt, he was doing everything to prove how he cared and i hurt him and this is a rebound he is trying to hurt me but it doesnt seem that way. he isn't being mean , he is normally a mean person when we have broken up in the past, wont take my calls, has a nasty attitude, etc but now he even seems concerned. the last time we were facetiming he told me how he loved me when i asked him was the past year all a lie. i thought he had to know this lady before he left until his daughter showed me screenshots of their conversations like he really just met this woman. 

i have stopped communication, it was hurting me more, the confusion of it all, it has been almost two weeks no contact. i was fed up when i called him back one day facetime and the new gf answered! i never answered his phone. he claimed he was distant that week because i was insecure but this new person can just do whatever. she knew it was me i was calling from my sons ipad. she looks a mess, like she used to drink and looks older than me, he has been broke since he has been gone but he is bad with money he used to just give me his checks and i handled finances. his daughter said they have argued with the girl screaming at him like a maniac but that is where he is, with a woman he claims to make him so very happy and is so special yet she has a man move right into her house with two small children. was it really all a lie? am i really the crazy one? i am hurting tonight just up wondering how he can throw me away after twwelve years, even when we werent together i was his very best friend, no one in the world knows the things i do about him and all for someone he met two months ago? i know who i am i do but i cant help but to feel so worthless. i know i am strong though i did miss some work, i have maintained my 4.0 in my masters program. i just feel so bad about myself and then i feel bad forfeeling bad about myself, i am just all messed up.