My bf, who's now my ex, came down to visit me for a week. We needed it since we were in a LDR and it was the first time seeing eachother in our 6month relationship. I thought everything was going so well, or at least as well as it could go for a first time considering we were still children at a sort. Then on the last day he was here before he was to leave he decides to just break it off. After i've given him my virginity. Of course it wasn't that same day. It was earlier that week. But to add insult to injury we had had relations earlier that day then he decides to break up with that night.... I was so furious and hurt I couldn't even say anything to him. Just lay there and stare at him while he "cried" too and pleaded for me not to hate him and told me that he still wanted me in his life. The reason why I finally decided to share this with this group was because i'm torn. I hate him so much and still want him in my life. I don't know how to stop talking to him if it's what I have to do. There's been some relationships, including the one with my own father, that have warped me to the point where I can't enjoy the one im in right now because I think negative thoughts, or get stupidly jealous, or shut down cause I can't share my feelings, or compare them to past relationships. I don't want to blow the relationship I have right now. The one I have now is the one I want to marry. If I could be friends with an ex I do, but come on, I have to tell myself this is unexceptable. He told me he thought it was right. That he had to do cause I wouldn't. I should have kicked his ass off the bed. Please. I really do need some advice. It hurts too much.