I'm in my late 20's going though a seperation and need someone to talk to as I'm stuggling in life atm. I feel lost and confused. I'm still hurting and haven't been able to find someone who understands my heartache. I lost not just my husband but my best friend and I'm still hurting.

My husband cheated because he hated himself. (his words) I have been seriously sick since 2014 and have almost died 5 times, He wasn't there much for me because he was scared of me dying. As well as cheating, he was on drugs and of course lying about it all not just to me and our families and friends but himself and still is lying to himself because he is weak. I also want to add that my husband has only ever had white partners and I was the first aboriginal one (I'm half aboriginal and aussie, so please don't make it a race thing. Just wanted to give context) and because of his actions and choices I'm broken hearted and so beyond hurt. I've been working hard to change my life for the better and to move on but I'm still madly in love with him. He has also been with this person for over 2 years now and still won't apply for a divorce even thought his is the person who left the relationship taking everything and has a job. I haven't asked for anything back, all I have asked was that he pay for the divorce since it was his mistake. (would anyone else do this) I just need someone who understands to chat to and to feel like I'm not alone.