Hi Everyone,

I would really like your advice and feelings on this one.  My long time relationship girlfriend (19 years) had accepted a job relocation about 700 miles away.  She worked real hard to get the proper education and felt very strongly in her heart that she needed to pursue the opportunity.  The problem is that I cannot move and join her for approximately18 months until I retire.  She comes to visit me every other weekend for 3 days and I will visit her once a month. Btw she mentioned on many occasions that she loves me and is not leaving me for another.   Maybe this sounds like a "piece of cake" (i.e. easy) but it's a living nightmare for me.  We've been doing this for 5 months already and it's not getting any better for me.  I feel very lonely and depressed. One problem is that it feels like a reoccurring nightmare each time she leaves.  The wound reopens as I must wait 2 weeks before we are together again. I am taking Dr prescribed antidepressants and sleeping pills. I am also seeing a therapist.  As I write this I sound like a real wimp and hot mess and maybe I am but the feelings are real and sting. Please don't tell me to get a hobby or a life because I am trying but I am really hurting.  Weekends are really tough.  My family are located on the other side of the country so I do not have physical access to them.  I do talk on the phone to them.  In my life I got through some tough times especially growing up in NYC but relationship issues are extremely punishing for me.  I sometimes feel like I am suffocating. If someone can relate to my situation I would truly appreciate their advice or take on what's going on with me.