its easy to fall down that rabbit hole when things just continue to be piled on, and when no one really seems to care, we can certainly feel at our lowest. The toughest is to feel unloved, unappreciated, and uncared about.

Its hard to fight through these tough times, especially when you dont have anyone by your side giving you that additional strength you feel you just dont have anymore.

But if you can hang on for just another day, make it through all the shit thats been piled on you, more times than not, you can find yourself closer to the top, then the bottom.

you just have to make it through...

I have been exactly where you are. Staring the beast dead in the face. You have to dig deep and find that strength. It isnt easy but it is there. My husband spent years demeaning and belittling me and had driven me to the brink. I am the analytical type and I really thought about it. That's what you need to do. Think. Think about how your daughter would feel attending your funeral. She has nothing to gain by losing you. She may be unhappy with the situation but she will get over it. My son did. Our sex life had been bad our entire 11 years. He made me believe that was my fault. Once we separated things changed. I started to feel different about myself away from the negativity and my sex drive came back in overdrive and I'm 49. I really didnt have any friends either since my ex had been cheating with my best friend of 35 years so I empathize there. I had a few distant friends. I drew them in and worked through it. Therapy has been a big help for me too. Especially you dont have a good friend it's a way to let go of what you are going through. What also helped me was talking to myself out loud about it. It made me see things more clearly. I was devastated when we split but I focused on myself. It was hard because he had someone else and I was alone. My son's father had died and after that I didnt think I would ever be happy again. I settled for my ex because he was someone I knew but obviously I didnt know him well enough. I was lonely and wanted someone in my life but wasn't interested in the bar scene and work with mostly females and not the public. As much as I hated to I joined on online dating site. To my surprise I met someone that has made me see everything in a different light. Point being I didnt think Inwould ever really feel for someone again and I was wrong. I was emphatic the zi would never marry or be in a serious relationship ever again but though I dont know where this will go I am thinking marriage isnt such a bad thing and I deserve to be happy all because of how he makes me feel about me. I also work in mental health not a therapist or counselor but we get training in handling this type of situation. If you want to talk more and talking really really helps, feel free to message me. You do matter,your life is worth living so fight for it, your daughter needs you no matter what you think, and there is someone out there that will show you what your life can really be like (so don't miss out be here to embrace it and be happy)