Ask your self a few questions....are you having fun with him? Do you feel like you can be yourself around him? Does he respect you and vice-versa? Does he know know your most intimate thoughts?

If most of your answers are no.....then you know what your future should be.

Fear of the unknown. You know what life is like with him, and you have a good idea of what the future would be with him. However, you have no idea what life will be like now without him and that can be terrifying.

Cora Bella, answered your question best. Its been a little over a week for me.
- Your fear of the future without him, your ego and heart being hurt is the biggest player! You have to try your very best to push him out of your head! Its tough but try. Get caugh up in yourself and start getting excited about you future, and start planning it! You will notice a stife, we all have that power to feel when the other person let's go.

Just want you to know going through same thing but with kids...I miss her everyday and everyone is saying " it will get better" but they don't know how much it really hurts...hope you can work through it and your not alone in your thinking.

I know it's holiday today but I just want this day to be over, pronto. It's been six days since he left the house and I just feel like I can't even breath without him. He cheated on, repeatedly. I don't think he even stopped. I am devastated but I miss him badly. I am losing my mind.

Lonelyme, its going to be OK! You will survive, its tough but don't sit around. Go get food and see fireworks!! Happy 4th of July!

Thanks

Well then perhaps it's time to start thinking about the cheating, and how he disrespected you, how he deceived and lied to you, right to your face, while he was being intimate with you, and how he made you feel like a fool, all the while screwing other women and pretending to love you, maybe then you'll start thinking and feeling a little differently about him.

Nothing is wrong with you!!! you cannot help who you love. My relationship has had its toxic moments too but through it all, i still love him with every piece of my soul. Have the two of you tried counseling?

There's nothing wrong with you!!!! Alcoholism runs in my family.... maybe no surprise then but in my late 20s I ended up finding myself engaged to a man who turned out to be a heroin addict! It took me a very long time to not want my ex back, even after I found out he'd been using behind my back, lying about it and even stealing from me!!! I've seen a few sides of addiction, so I can tell you firsthand that it's so deceiving and yet, so CONFUSING!! When they are sober, no one will treat you better. I saw this with my ex and I've also experienced it in my own family. With my ex, I felt no one could have loved me better and to this day the sober version of my ex is still one of the best partners I've had. But when they are "sick" as I say....forget it... no one will treat you worse. And unfortunately the bad times always have a way of outweighing the good with an addict. Addiction is such a horrible disease for everyone involved. You gave it 5 years... I am sure you went to hell and back. What worked for me was no contact... it was SO HARD and I even had to have a couple of friends that I'd force myself to call everytime I wanted to reach out to him. I eventually dated again and got married; it didn't work out but for very different reasons. But still,the better times with my ex-husband far outweighed the better times with my ex-fiancé. My point is, it might feel like you won't find someone as good as him (this is how addiction works) but you WILL. There are nice, sober men out there who can be just as loving towards you without the added side effects that come from drinking. Lots of hugs your way, I've been there, I know how hard it is!!!! This really struck home with me so I didn't even read through the other comments but please get yourself into Al-anon! A community of people who are going through similar circumstances as you is what will be most helpful right now. It made a world of difference for me, I hope it does for you too.

"Sometimes the memory of someone is better than the reality of them" -Steve Maraboli.

I like to look up breakup support quotes on pinterest whenever I miss my ex; we were in a toxic relationship too. What's worse is that we both still love each other very much but know that we're not good together.

Give the quotes a try, I hope it helps a bit. You're not alone.

I cant thank each and everyone of you who replied to me. I really need to hear this. This is the hardest thing ever to deal with and has made me so depressed and sad. Im going to seek some counseling on Friday due to all the crying and moping Ive been doing. :(