What you wrote, I wrote at one time. I still cant believe I come here after so much time has passed. yet I do. I remember people giving me advice during my dullest, darkest days of pain. The kind of paint that literally hurt me inside. It was this very group that I came to on the first night I lived alone by myself. I remember seeing how there were others who were going through exactly what I was. I dont reply much anymore but find myself doing it now.

The pain you feel will go away, Almost with certainty. That cliche' saying "Time heals all" well...shit. its true. I became much stronger once I healed from that pain. I was with this woman since I was 15 so to be 31 and going through a divorce...yeah. Boy was about to grow up fast. I wont bore you with details, but I will say this.

Keep yourself busy and try not to look back too much...if you can. I mean its ok to "look back" just dont get stuck looking back for too long as it will just cause hurt or even false hope at times. We all heal differently, I get that. I used to cry over songs that would play on radio, or reading a sign on the street that had to do with love or something. I would see couples and that would tear me up inside. I remember canceling my gym membership and I couldnt even get all the words out of my mouth before I started choking up. God I felt stupid but it was the real me, the real pain speaking. So to be short, just focus on yourself now, think about what YOU want to do. And dont get stuck thinking your going to be alone forever! That happens to us all, we think we're ugly, not good enough or not rich enough or something! But dont. Trust me, we are all like gold, we have to go through the fire to come out harder and more pure and refined. Like precious metal, the more times in the fire the harder and more precious it is. So I wish you the best my friend and as always, your not alone here int his group. I still cant believe its been almost 10 yrs since I first came here, yet it feels like I can remember that first post or journal entry when I look back and read. ((((hugs))))

hey the same thing is happening to me right now. I feel rerally anxious all the time and dont want to be alone. I find writting things down , going for a walk help or go to a park or nice coffee shop and read. Maybe you could write your partner a letter . I would say you should see a therapist , that always helps. Anyway if you feel bad post on here and we can chat . Make a list of 3 to five things you want to do for yourself today . they can be really small things like go for a 5 min walk or buy a journal ,