Tomorrow we are meeting so we can get the paperwork done to send in for the divorce. I told him I wanted him to go first and then I would go at a different time because I didn't want to see him. He told me that he was not my enemy. And he didn't see why I don't want to be around him. I don't want to be around him because I don't want him to see me cry anymore. He was the one who wanted to go on with divorce because I wouldn't move back into his moms house with him. We got married in July, I moved out in October we were trying to work it out, or so I thought and now we are filing for divorce tomorrow. This was a huge mistake. I married a man who doesn't work, lives with his mom and off his mom and he is very immature and selfish. I feel like an idiot and I want to move on. I don't want to be married to someone that treated me like a roommate instead of a wife. So why do I cry when he calls to talk about the divorce, or when he called to see how I was and if we could be friends after this? I cry because I mourn the loss of what I had in my mind of what I wanted this marriage to be and of who the person I thought I was marrying. I have so much anxiety about tomorrow. I can't wait for to be over.