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Here is the background to my story for those who havent read it before :http://www.dailystrength.org/people/3039556/journal
Ive been feeling strong, not feeling much "love" but as I had mentioned I am feeling so much anger and regret in this moment.. I have been praying but then I get these moments of "God, why me, why did you do this to me?".
I have asked him to show me what to do, and I feel that deep down I am waiting for him to come back and apologize and us go back to being happy again. and I get angry when it doesnt happen.
But then I pray and I feel that God is showing me what to do, he wouldnt put him back in my life because he was not worth it.
this man has turned into the Devil. So cruel, so cold, so soulless. I dont understand how I could have been so blind?
when he cheated, I forgave him because I loved him, but he never even made an attempt to make me feel special again. He even had the audacity to say that i am asking for too much attention from him "Duh you idiot - you cheated, how am i suppose to feel ?!"
Yet when I made the mistake of putting my hands on him, i cooked him dinners, gave him massages, wrote letters...things to let him know that I loved him and that i was sorry.
I have blocked any form of contact with him and his family. I am just so sad about his family, not one person in his family has reached out to me, meanwhile while this whole mess was happening my parents reached out to him, making sure he is ok.
I promise I have been trying to stay away from seeing anything that goes on in his life. But today I didnt realize i still had on of his cousins as a friend on Instagram (its like Facebook) and I saw that he commented on a picture of hers.
I was so shocked because during our whole relationship he REFUSED to get an account, said he thought it was stupid. Now all of the sudden he is "single" and I guess has a different outlook.
Now that the dust settling i see how manipulative he was, of course he didnt want an instagram..because that would make him put pictures of us..and ofcourse who ever he was messing with would be able to see it.
what hurt me is that in his profile picture , is him and all I see are girls in bikinis behind him.
I cant believe this is the man I married. I cant believe this is the man I trusted to be my life partner. What happened to him?
I wanted to be married because I loved him, he NEVER loved me and that hurts so much. so much.
I dont know what to do, I just feel like he is enjoying life without and thats painful. As if I meant nothing. I mean nothing, that word alone is so painful.
Please pray for me. I need to the light...I dont know how much longer I can do this.
Ive been feeling strong, not feeling much "love" but as I had mentioned I am feeling so much anger and regret in this moment.. I have been praying but then I get these moments of "God, why me, why did you do this to me?".
I have asked him to show me what to do, and I feel that deep down I am waiting for him to come back and apologize and us go back to being happy again. and I get angry when it doesnt happen.
But then I pray and I feel that God is showing me what to do, he wouldnt put him back in my life because he was not worth it.
this man has turned into the Devil. So cruel, so cold, so soulless. I dont understand how I could have been so blind?
when he cheated, I forgave him because I loved him, but he never even made an attempt to make me feel special again. He even had the audacity to say that i am asking for too much attention from him "Duh you idiot - you cheated, how am i suppose to feel ?!"
Yet when I made the mistake of putting my hands on him, i cooked him dinners, gave him massages, wrote letters...things to let him know that I loved him and that i was sorry.
I have blocked any form of contact with him and his family. I am just so sad about his family, not one person in his family has reached out to me, meanwhile while this whole mess was happening my parents reached out to him, making sure he is ok.
I promise I have been trying to stay away from seeing anything that goes on in his life. But today I didnt realize i still had on of his cousins as a friend on Instagram (its like Facebook) and I saw that he commented on a picture of hers.
I was so shocked because during our whole relationship he REFUSED to get an account, said he thought it was stupid. Now all of the sudden he is "single" and I guess has a different outlook.
Now that the dust settling i see how manipulative he was, of course he didnt want an instagram..because that would make him put pictures of us..and ofcourse who ever he was messing with would be able to see it.
what hurt me is that in his profile picture , is him and all I see are girls in bikinis behind him.
I cant believe this is the man I married. I cant believe this is the man I trusted to be my life partner. What happened to him?
I wanted to be married because I loved him, he NEVER loved me and that hurts so much. so much.
I dont know what to do, I just feel like he is enjoying life without and thats painful. As if I meant nothing. I mean nothing, that word alone is so painful.
Please pray for me. I need to the light...I dont know how much longer I can do this.
I've been praying a lot more recently too. Usually I pray for strength to get through this and that He remove the hatred from my heart. There's not many people in this world that I actually hate, not even my father who abandoned me and claimed I wasn't his child (I look just like him duh). I don't want to hate STBX either. I'm not sure if hating someone is better than being numb to everything but I don't want it to eat me alive either.
Are you seeing a therapist yet? If not, I would suggest you see one. I can tell mine anything and everything and feel safe doing so.
There are quite a few who hate Facebook or sites like it because people can post anything they want to. In other words they can make you believe anything they want you to believe. Most exes do exactly what your ex is doing cause that is the best way to make you miserable, and it really doesn't mean he is happy. He sure wants you to think he is.
I really am sorry and please remember your snake of an ex wants you to see that. That's the only reason he posted it.
I hope you won't go back, and totally ignore the snake.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))
It scares me, how can I ever hope to be with someone and not be afraid that one day they'll run off as well?.
stay strong.
I remember feeling EXACTLY like this.. it was the worst and I honestly thought I would never feel anything different.
His grand life is not all its cracked up to be. He was rotten to you and he has to carry that with him for life. His soul is dirty and hes the one who has to bear that burden. He may not openly express it, but if he doesnt feel it yet, he will eventually.
At any rate, dont forget karma is a total b*tch
Charlie nailed it though - focus on what the relationship meant to YOU, not to him. All of the rotten things hes put you through does not negate any of the good. You still have those good experiences and lessons learned to take with you through life. He can never take that away from you.
Keep pushin girl
I really hope Karma is real!
Please get that, if you soar or sink it doesn't matter to him.
You matter to God. It takes time once you have reason to post on this site but after you take some lumps. You NEED to want to be okay. Doesn't mean that okay will come right away but it will.
Ask God for help.
There are many here that will pray for you. There are many here that don't pray however they will keep a good thought thier hear for you.
The thoughts and prayers will lift you, in time but YES, in time they will help lift you to okay.