This really bothers me...

"How do I keep myself from snapping and doing something stupid (suicide)."

I HIGHLY suggest that you find a Suicide Prevention Line that you can call. You have a daughter that needs you. Suicide does nothing but hurt and burden everyone around you, including your family and friends. You really need to be LEANING on your family and friends at this time to help you find the ways to make it through this.

Please, call someone now. You are special to so many people.

Don't even consider it. You have a wonderful life in front of you. Your daughter will have to live with what you did. So will your son. You will hurt them more than you will ever know. Get on some anti-depressants fast. Go and talk to your doctor.

Please seek help for your daughter. Believe me there is an end to the pain and it does not have to be through suicide.

Hi there! Well first off, you have a beautiful child right? So the thought of suicide is so wrong, it is so selfish! Think of this child you have together first and foremost. Secondly, my husband walked out after 30 years just 3 months ago, and like you we had it all. I do now know why this happens to us we know we do not deserve this, but we cannot give up! I feel like if I give up then he has won, I guess I am a little selfish but I will not give him the satisfaction. I have hard days even now but I have to be honest, they do get better. I couldn't eat, sleep or anything either but I prayed and asked God for guidance and I have clung to him. This could also be what he wants for me. I totally became dependent on my husband and now I have to start all over. I have never been alone, I raised my sister and younger brother from when I was 12 and have had my children later and taking care of them, I forgot about me. Start with prayer, talk to all of us, talk to your friends. Do not stay home, go with your daughter to the park etc. My kids have totally pushed me to get out of the house.

I am here if you would like to talk. Feel free okay? Here is alot of hugs: ((((((hugs))))))) for you! Stay strong you have so much to live for!!!!

I am on meds. They were just increased. I had a very long talk with my doctor last Friday. I told him everything. He gave me a name of a counselor. She opens in 10 minutes.

Good - I hope the counselor can ease your pain and be a good guide to you. Take care -and let us know how your day goes.

You sound like me six months ago. Same ages, years married daughter everything. Go into therapy immediately. It has helped me so much. I am still going. Talk to people here, read what they ahve to say, cry, scream but never give into suicide. Think of your daughter. When you brought her into this world you accepted taking care of her, making her safe and loved. Well leaving would break that promise. I could never leave my daughter and you shouldn't think of leaving her either. It will get easier and you will recover. You have to keep that in mind as you go through this roller coaster.
Regarding your job, can you tell someone. I work with mostly guys but they know my situation and my boss does and they have been very supportive in my mood swings and crying and maybe if you let work know they will understand that this is only temporary.

Well I just made my appointment. I will see a counselor tomorrow morning at 8:00am. I've been reading some other issues on this site and I feel I can relate to alot of people. I really need some people to chat with on a day to day basis.

Most of us who have been her for a while have been where you are or close to it. Your in the very beginning and it very hard at this point. You have made to very good decisions so far. You have found a counselor and you have discovered this site. Both can and will be a great help to you. I don't know if you can save your marriage or not, and it does not sound like he treats you very well. You have to make some hard decisions to make but taking yourself out of the game is not an option so get that straight right now. It does not solve any thing it just brings a lot of pain to the people who know and love you. I have seen what suicide can do and its not pretty at all. What ever happens it will get better. As we like to say here some times, Stay Strong.

Hi ,

Believe me I know exactly what you are going through our situation is a mirror image. Only we have a little 4 year old and a 19 year old. Please lets help each other throught this Be positive and find a counselor you need to talk and talk alot. My problem is at night after our daughter goes to bed it s so lonley. Take care

All of us have been where you are at some point. And lemme tell you ending your life over someone who doesn't have the balls to stay in your marriage and doesn't care about you and is selfish is NOT WORTH IT. You are too precious to give it up for him and your child needs you.

I'm glad you are seeking help for yourself to deal with the emotional side of things cuz it will be hard and you will need much support.

cm, everyone here has been through this and we have all survived through support, therapy and growth. Start by loving yourself with your whole being. You can get through this and you will. No one is worth more than your own life.

so sorry hon, just talk talk talk talk to us, we all been there done that. we'll listen and we'll help..you do not deserve the pain..it'll be the hardest thing you'll ever do but WE WILL GET YOU THRU THIS

Ladies.. OMG..
NO MAN (or woman) IS WORTH KILLING YOURSELF OVER!!!

Also.. how would your kids feel knowing that they didn't mean enough to you to live for them?? That would mess them up for life. Could you do that to them? Please seek help.. Please.

I'm sorry you are hurting. All of us have been where you are. Please talk to your counselor and NEVER consider suicide. Why would you hurt yourself? How does that make the situation better?

Focus on caring for your children. Tell a few people at work whom you can trust so they can support you there. Even see if you can take a few day off. My boss was super supportive and I took a few days off in the beginning of the separation. It really helped.

Keep talking to us here at DS. You can find someone online literally 24/7 (I know this because I've been on here at all hours of the day and night). We will help you to vent and cry and heal.

Peace and hugs to you.