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Hurtforloving 01/01/2014

I'm ashamed to say that I am having a truly weak moment right now. I read through the emails between us again (explained in my other posts). I hate that I am still crying over this. I think even after all he's done, I still love him. That's why it hurts so much. And that although he keeps saying he cares for and respects me and he's so sorry and doesn't think all the things he wrote in the bad email anymore etc. I'm so confused. I can't take this. I said to myself I would not contact him again. I'm so tired of fighting for what is important to me. Just once I want to be fought for. I want someone to hold me so tight the broken pieces go back together. I miss him so fucking much. But it hurts more that I know he won't make that effort for me. Or that even knowing I was the best thing in his life, he does even truly realise or feel anything other than guilt and pity.
I am sorry for this guys. After so long I've cracked again.

milliejay 01/01/2014

I know how you feel and don't feel bad for having a set back - if you know he's not good for you - get back on track. It's normal to have bad days especially during the holidays. I also know what you mean when you say you wish you had someone who fights for you. Sounds a lot lk my ex - I had to breakup w/him b/c of his bad actions and his words woulds say "I love you" - but his actions never did. I did a lot of back and forth - in the end had to keep telling myself that he wasn't good for me - stay strong. Sounds like you know you deserve better. One thing I also learned - love isn't enough. You are saying you still love him - sometimes it's okay to know that but we don't have to act on it. Love isn't supposed to hurt - if you were in a relationship where you weren't at peace - that relationship is not for you.
Good luck :)

Hurtforloving 01/01/2014

Thank you so much. I have deleted the emails now. I can't read through them again and keep wondering. It may sound egotistical but I suppose another reason is that with the relationship I thought I had, how could he give up on me? I figure A girl that you keep saying is amazing and "the best girlfriend", loves you regardless of the fact you worry about being short and balding (which I truly didn't care about. He was handsome to me), that gives up so much so you can pursue your dream, that draws comics fir you just to make you laugh, that loves your family and friends who also love her back, likes seeing you play video games and cuddling on the couch with dinner and a movie and dressing up for a night out was a good thing.
Why can't things ever be simple eh?

And who knows. Perhaps even one day (if I want it) I shall see a shadow in the distance. As it get's closer, it turns out to be a muscular bearded man with a pizza in one hand and a cute dog in the other. And...his shirt is moving?.... Oh! It's because he is using his manly manly body to warm a litter of kittens. And he shall look at me and say "J, let us eat pizza, cuddle and watch movies whilst playing with these cute animals"
....I don't think I'm asking too much eh?

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