Stop thinking about harming yourself. This time period was always going to be a shit time. You have been through much worse (being a veteran you know it's true) and you will come out of this stronger than you ever were.

Of course going to pack up your things was going to trigger all the agony of the separation. Feeling dumped is a choice. You already know you were thinking of leaving her before she left you. You need to adjust your thinking to get through this.

Taking the part time job was a brilliant step in the right direction. If you still feel like you have excess energy to work off, join a gym or take up boxing. Those are constructive ways to work it off.

You said she respected your wishes not to bring him into your shared dwelling. She honored your wishes. To say that you know she wants to bring him there is nothing but pure conjecture on your part. You are not a mind reader. This is just you projecting your own thoughts onto her, in a vain effort to continue punishing yourself.

Seeing the little gifts a man in love naturally buys for his lady and thinking of them together are two things that are no longer you concern. They are together and have a right to live their lives as they see fit. You replaying their relationship in your own mind instead of going out and finding someone who is more compatible with you is a CHOICE. You make that choice each day when you wake up.

Pack your crap, put it in storage and get the hell out of there. Being there is triggering you right back to ground zero. It's being in that environment. You were doing good there for a minute, get back there and concentrate on moving forward. I know you can do this. I believe in you!

If you are seriously thinking of harming yourself call for help. I believe you know the number. Don't totally throw in the towl over a major bump in the road. You're better than that.

I am so sorry for your situation. It is understandable that you would feel betrayed, angry and aimless because it hasn’t been too long since you found out. Know that things get better with time, you just have to get through this. Whatever she has done, this does not signal that you are not worthwhile, that your life doesn’t have meaning or much about you – just about her and the choices she has made. Have you thought about counseling? Just to get a professional’s opinion, a different viewpoint, could be helpful. Keep putting one foot in front of the other, making new choices, making new habits – and you will may surprise yourself and find you are a new person with a new and positive outlook. Best wishes to you.

Thanks Everyone.

My mind is a whirlwind. I’m sorry I panicked.

I still think about harming myself but I will continue to work on that.

Thanks for the support.

So do I, but I know that is not the correct answer. Just have to keep hoping that in a few years you will look back at this time and be glad that you stuck with it, as you will love your new life,

I have never known anyone who tried suicide, by God's grace lived, that did not later give Thanks for life again! I know what you are feeling-let it hurt; "Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted"

You are a awesome person! Im saying this because. You had the guts to come on here and tell us your story. You are a brave, passionate and thougtful person. You only derserve the best. Your ex wasn't capable of handling the type of love that you have to offer. Only a certain kind of individual should be deserving to your love. Please chose wisely & not waste your time on countless ones that aren't worthy. Please

Can’t imagine your pain. I can only say take one moment at a time. Pray and ask for strength and His comfort and love. Maybe just move around too- go for a walk, make yourself visit a friend . You can do this. There are crises numbers to call and those people really want to talk and listen to you.

If you need to, double up on the counseling. I found going to a divorce support group was the absolute best thing for me. I don't normally share my deepest, darkest fears and concerns with just anyone (well, it's easy here to just type them) but I forced myself to go. I was still married, and that first session I couldn't really share, just squeaked out a few words and a lot of tears, but was comforted simply by the presence of every age, shape and size of people there. What an eye opener. I saw myself go from start to finish there, and it gave me the ability to find strength in myself again. I hope the same for you too.

u r not alone! My ... is cheating me with my relative! There r some moments I tried to hurt myself, but now, I think I am moving on! why should I kill myself for one Ugly in and out person? blv me no one deserve ur life! U will be ok!