I am currently going through waves. I know it is over and sometimes i am ok, and othertimes i get so sad. I just miss him so much. He was my best friend. I still follow him on social media ( i know i shouldnt) and he has been posting pictures and he hasnt even posted pictures in years and he looks so cute, it just breaks my heart all over again. I just keep thinking why didnt he want me why couldnt we have made it work. The strangest thing of all is we still communicate. I realize i am doing this break up thing very wrong, but we dated almost 7 years and we both have small friend circles so we really were best friends. It is just nice that he will text me and ask how my day is going. There are some days where i go the whole day without saying anything to anybody and that is a sad life. SO i know i should cut him off and block him and all of that but it is just so hard especially when we were best friends and he checks in on me and sees how im doing. The attraction is definielty still there but he just felt like we were going to get married and he wasnt ready for that just yet ( we are young). I am just torn. is blocking him and removing him on everything really the only way to move on? I feel stuck between not wanting to let him go and scared to let him go and hurt by the fact that he wants to be my friend but doesnt want more. Occasionally he will flirt and i have to remind him we are friends and he will stop. It is just hard because he actually appears to care how my day is going and what is new in my life. When there are very few peoplein my life who actually care it is that much harder to let that person who does go. Even though that person broke up with me and i hate seeing him take cute pictures and post it on social media my heart cannot take it.