I am so sorry you have to go through this. It sounds to me like you have been through a lot of trauma. I wish I had better words to help you through your pain. I lost a child to miscarriage and it was devastating to me as I had hopes and dreams for that child. I am also a strong believer against abortion, but I am not here to judge you. I want to help you so please don't take my words the wrong way.

I would like to sit here and tell you that its the mens fault for treating you the way they do. They are scum of the earth and should be treated that way. You however allow them to run over and use you. You are the only one with the power to stop this behavior and improve your life. There are a few good men out there that would love and take care of you , but first you need to love yourself and take care of yourself by getting rid of these scumbag men in your life.

People will treat you how you allow them to treat you!

So you need to work on your self esteem and realize that you are a very valuable person and deserve to be treated with respect! What good is having someone around if they treat you like crap ? That dose more damage then it dose good.

If you would like to talk I am usually around during the week.

Big Hugs and best of luck.

Thanks for your advise @lostsoul72. I wanted to cut off all contacts with him but the fear of no one to talk to shaken me. I am so worried that I will be lonely forever and no one will ever love me again. I know I sound stupid but I am so vulnerable. He had cheated me financially but promise to pay back which does not happen, got me impregnated...all these red flags has proven that he is indeed a scumbag but why do I still wanna eat d apple which I already knew it is poisonous? Is there something wrong with me? This has been eating me up day by day. I need to seek help before another bad thing happen. What should I do? Pls advice

Can you get any kind of therapy ? I fell your selling yourself short and you really need to work on your self worth and self esteem. I know it seems scary sometimes to think that we may be alone forever, but in all honesty you are alone now. Just because you have someone there that treats you bad and takes advantage of you is not a relationship. Eventually you will feel so much more alone being with this man then you would ever being being on your own.

Big hugs and I am around if you need help or support.

I am seeing a physciatrist now and am on medication. It does help but I need to stand back up on my own two feet without any man. My self-esteem is indeed very low and with this happening to me, it became worst. Can you suggest way to get out of this relationship?

How are you doing now PLing? Any better?

I understand your feeling of loneliness and I was wondering if things have improved in your life since you have been getting help. While a psychiatrist and medicine can take the edge off of depression it cannot necessarily help you with your self-esteem and feeling of loneliness.

I highly recommend you seeing a therapist and being in a support group for others with self-esteem issues. I am in therapy and in a 12 step program and it is helping a lot. I am also practicing yoga which is amazing. It really has been a blessing in helping me with emotional pain.

Sending you a hug. Wanting better for you in the world of self-compassion and loving yourself first.

Hi Jazul, with the holidays season around, my days were like a roller coaster, some days good while some days bad. D medication did help to calm me down but to think rationally sometimes is near impposible. I have participated a lot lately in support groups and I realized now that the man in my life is a narcissist which will never change. I am going back to my therapist this week to further understand my situation. Hopefully 2016 will be better for me. Thks for your suggestion on self-esteem, I will join the group :)