To totally forget I ever knew my ex, to totally forget the illusion I had about what we were, what he was, to move on and be happy with what I have,

AND to STOP FUCKING DREAMING ABOUT HIM!!!

I'm attempting to cook my first pancake..just now. It's not pretty.... Some *peace* your way....

Hop aboard young man
.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_6mKMV0d2cs

My goal is to wake up not thinking about this situation...not constantly wondering what he will do next...how can I afford my lifestyle, the lawyer bill, to not be consumed by thoughts of them, to go to bed without thinking about him/them....to truly move on...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7wEctHyuc0
See this one also, a nice version also.

Rman, for me, those moments come in just that format, moments.

Utter peace and tranquility is a tough dream to catch.

As I am settled in my mind with all my relationships, still, in the day to day grind of life, I don't see much of it.

I say take it as it comes, when it comes. Relish in it while you have it, mourn it when it flees, and know that it will come again.

-Tom

I think my ultimate goal would be to finally separate from him and raise my 2 sons, to stop being afraid of doing it alone if necessary, and to just be happy again one day. Laughter would be nice again.

(I don't remember seeing you this serious except for the first time you came here.)

my goal is to wake up not angry for once.

I am now the best "me" I have ever been.

I don't "need" someone anymore.

I just "want" someone to share my life with.
Then I will be happy.

And kids would be great :)

To eventually be out of divorce warp(over 4 years)!!!!!
I've already gone on with my life and building my dream :)

To be honest, I want peace of mind too, over anything else. I want to stop being depressed. I want the rollercoaster to end.
In external terms I have everything I could want, my job, my house, my kid, even a new relationship, but I still need the internal part: peace of mind. Self-esteem would be nice too.

I want to be happy and feel good about myself. I want to be confident and proud of who I am.

I want my kids to have a stable, healthy home life and be able to see that this all is not in any way, shape or form their fault. I don't want them to blame either parent for all this. I want them to have as normal a life as possible.

I want our family to still be able to be a "family" as much as possible. I don't want outsiders involved when we get together for things in the future.

I want to be able to love and trust someone and in return, I want them to respect, communicate with and love me like I deserve to be.

I even want my STBX wife to be happy someday. I want her to find herself and figure out what caused her behavior in our marriage. I even would like for her to find someone decent someday and hopefully not treat them like she did me. And hopefully that person in turn will not treat her poorly.

And I would like to have a healthy friendship with her someday, after I have forgiven her and accepted her apology.

Most of this is not going to happen any time soon. But eventually, someday.

Two chicks at the same time.

"I even want my STBX wife to be happy someday. I even would like for her to find someone decent someday and hopefully not treat them like she did me. And hopefully that person in turn will not treat her poorly. "

Wow. Good for you :)

"I even want my STBX wife to be happy someday. I even would like for her to find someone decent someday and hopefully not treat them like she did me. And hopefully that person in turn will not treat her poorly. "

Wow. Good for you :) "
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EastCoast - that is, once she learns that her current boyfriend isn't that person. LOL