I'm sitting at home going over the entire 11years of marriage. Dam this fool leaves me again. I had surgery Thursday and the low down dog was not even around. I guess he forgot. I'm so shocked that he has not called. I guess I thought this could have been better than this. I wan to destroy him but I leave that to GOD. After all of what we have been through and this is it. Shit, Nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can not get any answers to why for all of this. All I remember is that I left for work we kissed and said I love you and now he has not been back since June 10th. I sit here asking myself is he happy now? Is he in love with the other individual? I guess out of sight out of mind is the way he is handling everything. The last time I talked to this fool he was being very nasty to me as if I did something to him. He rush me off the phone and states stay right by the phone I will call you right back don't move I will call you right back. It has been three weeks. What the fuck!! I mean what in the hell is going on. I want him to hurt like me and I can't. I'm so frustrated with this I could explode. I supported him for two years of his non working ass, and problems needing psych meds, depression and all. Now he leaves me to be with another and forget me. OH GOD please help me from my rage. This is not fair at all. I sit wonder will he call again, will he try to come back,or will he call to ask for a divorce.Some please talk to me. Why the bullshit!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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